A loss is a loss

I lost .8 this week, which isn't horrible considering that ive not been great, especially last weekend. I'm at 145 even now, and have almost reached my 10lb mark. 10lbs in 10 weeks isn't bad. I would have been happier if it had been 15lbs in 10 weeks, but I'll live. I'm headed in the right direction, and even though its slow, I'm still going to get there.

If I could just keep on journaling, and not fall off the wagon completely on the weekend, I might get there a little faster. In the end, it's all up to me.

I have 20lbs to go and 11 months to do it, so what's the rush?

I Lied

So much for no mistakes. I apparently have an inability to diet on the weekends. I didn't do AS bad as last weekend but it wasn't great.

Friday night badness included Garlic Bread, Icee and Whoppers
Saturday included Tortillas, Strawberry Margarita, and Sour Patch Kids.
Sunday included Taco Bell, Fried Zuchinni and a Pina Colada.

But just like before Monday was my back on track day. I don't think I ate all my points yesterday. My stomach was NOT happy with me after the gym. Edit. I did eat all my points, but didn't go over. I was perfect yesterday. Woot.

I don't know what the results will be this week. My monthly friend is on its way and has already given me the gift of extreme bloatyness. I was in so much pain when I woke up this morning, it was not fun. Gas cramps are not a fun way to start your day.

I've got Body Blast and Bootcamp tonight.

I need to get back onto journaling...I've been so bad.

7:56. I guess I should work. I dont wannnnna.

Phew

So I didn't lose...but, I didn't gain either. Which is nice. Now I have to get into high gear and try and lose 2 weeks worth of weight in 1. I know its not very realistic to say I'm going to lose 3lbs in 1 week, but I'm going to try and do it. I really do think I lost 2lbs in the past few days to make up for the weekend...so why shouldn't I be able to lose 3lbs in 7 days.

3lbs would put me at 142.8 by 5/14. And then I have until 5/20 to get as close to 140 as possible. I need to find the motivation to stay on track while I'm on vacation to get as close to 135 as possible for Danny's wedding on 6/13.

I'm on a mission now. No time for mistakes!!!

Today is weigh in day and I don't have high hopes. Scale at home said 145.6 this morning, which would mean I lost .2lbs - however, the scales are not the same and my home scale is usually .5lb-1lb lower than the Weight Watchers Scale.

I worked my butt off these past few days to not gain, and I'm not so sure my efforts paid off - atleast not yet. If I do gain this week, and I continue with this exercise regime next week, I'm going to really push to lose a big amount next week.

Knowing how hard I had to work to make up for the food I put in my mouth is not worth it. Saying no would have been 100x easier.

Mothers Day will be my challenge.

Tomorrow is the dreaded weigh in - more dreaded than any of the past weigh in's so far. This might actually be the first time I'll gain during this whole weight watchers process.

Friday started out good. And then I got home, and snacked. It was like I was ravenous. I had PopChips, Pepperonis. Then I got to my Mom's house and snacked some more. I don't remember on what anymore. Luckily, she brought home Subway for dinner.

Saturday also started out good. I had a Slim-Rite for breakfast and then was running around all day getting stuff ready for the party. Once we were all set up and people started showing up, I started drinking. I had 3 Smirnoffs, 1 Mudslide, 2 Margaritas. Then I had some chips and dip, though not a ton, BBQ chicken, pork ribs, Hawaiian roll, Potato Salad and a Cream Cheese Brownie. Woops.

Sunday I had Wendy's for lunch and Panda for dinner.

Then Monday we went to PF Changs for lunch. I had the Sesame Chicken lunch bowl and then there was a piece of chocolate cake.

Thats when I went into full on guilt mode. I went to the gym that night and did Kickboxing, Elliptical, Treadmill and weights, burning about 1000 cals. And then I didn't eat dinner.

Tuesday I stayed within my points and went to the gym again, and did Body Blast and Bootcamp and 30 minutes on the treadmill. Another 800-900 calories burned.

Tonight, I'm doing Kickboxing, Treadmill, Weights, and then going in the sauna to get rid of some of this water weight.

I CANT GAIN WEIGHT!!!! I don't know what else to do at this point...eat less points tonight, not eat breakfast or anything before weigh in tomorrow. Hell, maybe I'll even take a laxative tonight to clean out my system, lol.

Tonight I'm on water overload, flushing my body out, making sure its not retaining water.

Please don't gain, please don't gain.

The verdict

So I weighed in at 145.8 which is exciting. Lost 1.2lbs last week, which is great, assuming all the crap I ate. Imagine if I had actually behaved all 7 days. That'll be this week. So far, so good...granted, I'm only one breakfast in. Lol. Oh me.

Tomorrow might be difficult with the engagement party, but as long as I just stick to Chicken, fruit and veggies, I should be ok. No snacking, no snacking, no snacking.

Haven't been to the gym in a couple days. Haven't been feeling great, but the rest has done some good I think. I also have this awful blister on my foot that makes anything other than sitting uncomfortable.

I guess I should do some work...It's almost 8, and I've been here for 40 minutes and not done a thing.

Payday today, thank god, though I won't see any of it!