This week was a week of gains.
I gained a lot of emotional turmoil, from both work and home. I don't feel respected by some of my coworkers in my unit, and am having some issues at home when it comes to dinner. It sounds silly, but it made for a really crappy couple of days.
I also gained a pound. I wasn't expecting it, and certainly didn't deserve it. I did have a couple of days where I did go over my points, but nothing to warrant a weight gain. I am going to go ahead and blame it on my "special time" that decided to start the morning of my weigh-in.
And my other gain, would be my raise. A raise is good, right? But is a 3.6% raise all that great when you're 33% below the midpoint salary for your position. I don't know...I was disappointed. At the end of the year, it'll come out to be about $1200, before taxes. So I'll see, what, maybe half of that. While my raise was mediocre, I had a great review, and it sounds like everyone is pleased with my work ethic.
We're still attempting to see what my job situation is going to be like when I move. As of right now, staying with Wells Fargo almost seems like a dead end. We're still trying, and I now Darrow doesn't want to lose me, but I think he's just trying to convince Wells Fargo as a whole, not to let me go, even if that means finding me a position in the Atlanta office for another producer.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Ups and Downs
Life is not always fun and games. Like now for example. I've been having issues with one of my coworkers. Technically we work in the same unit, but I've spent maybe 15-20 minutes total talking to her in person in the last 2 1/2 years we've worked together. She's a crazy cat lady who doesn't shower, or at least doesn't look like it, and half of the time, my pajamas look more professional than what she wears here. She has probably one of the most secluded cubicles in the office, which doesn't help that she's one
of the most solitary people here. She's set in her ways and doesn't listen to any suggestions I have. She's lazy and gives me all of her brainless "clerical" work that she feels is too beneath her to spend her time on. I'm starting to get fed up with being degraded by her day in and day out, through our limited interaction, that I'm starting to include smart-ass remarks in my email replies to her. I just can't stand it.
Things at home aren't much better. My Mom expects us to start cooking dinner if we get home before her, which, I usually do. I don't mind helping, or starting something, but a lot of the food she makes, I don't know how to make. We've told her that all she has to do is call, text or leave a note saying "hey, if you get home first, do this, do that" and I'll do it. But she expects us to be able to know what exactly she wants to have to dinner and what exactly we need to do to prepare it.
Last night my Mom got home, and after a few minutes we get up to go see what we can help with to get dinner ready. As soon as we enter the kitchen my Dad waves us out because apparently my Mom is ALREADY pissed off and has ranted to my Dad. Dad ended up picking up Tacos and while Josh, my Dad and I sat at the table, she sat by herself in the living room. It's ridiculous. Josh and I aren't asking her to cook us dinner - we'd be happy just making a sandwich or a bowl of cereal - but because we aren't mind readers, we get in trouble. It makes me want to just stop having dinners with them all together. It'd save us money on groceries, thats for sure. This last grocery bill was $383 - and thats just dinners and fruits that I'll eat during the day. Josh and I still down our own trips for Milk, Cereal, Bread, and Smart Ones and stuff like that for my lunches. I'm just tired of coming home and having someone pissed off at me for something that is entirely not my fault.
It also sounds like my brothers Divorce is going to be uglier than previously expected. My brother was just planning on them having joint custody of the kids, but it sounds like Cheryl is going to demand full custody, and in return, so would Craig. Cheryl can't support herself, let alone those kids, financially or emotionally. Craig would not only be stuck with paying child support for three kids, but would also be paying alimony to Cheryl because she's been out of work for the past 11 years, and working at Target part time for the past 6 months. Ridiculous.
In other news, the scale is all over the place. I was up almost 3lbs yesterday from Saturday, which - isn't okay (or explainable). I'm still having issues with my "regularity" in that, I'm just not going. I took a pill last night which solved that problem this morning, bringing the scale back down, but I'm still up from what I should be. I'm also expecting a visit from my Aunt Flo any day now which I'm sure doesn't help either, but, its certainly not helping my motivation at all.
of the most solitary people here. She's set in her ways and doesn't listen to any suggestions I have. She's lazy and gives me all of her brainless "clerical" work that she feels is too beneath her to spend her time on. I'm starting to get fed up with being degraded by her day in and day out, through our limited interaction, that I'm starting to include smart-ass remarks in my email replies to her. I just can't stand it.
Things at home aren't much better. My Mom expects us to start cooking dinner if we get home before her, which, I usually do. I don't mind helping, or starting something, but a lot of the food she makes, I don't know how to make. We've told her that all she has to do is call, text or leave a note saying "hey, if you get home first, do this, do that" and I'll do it. But she expects us to be able to know what exactly she wants to have to dinner and what exactly we need to do to prepare it.
Last night my Mom got home, and after a few minutes we get up to go see what we can help with to get dinner ready. As soon as we enter the kitchen my Dad waves us out because apparently my Mom is ALREADY pissed off and has ranted to my Dad. Dad ended up picking up Tacos and while Josh, my Dad and I sat at the table, she sat by herself in the living room. It's ridiculous. Josh and I aren't asking her to cook us dinner - we'd be happy just making a sandwich or a bowl of cereal - but because we aren't mind readers, we get in trouble. It makes me want to just stop having dinners with them all together. It'd save us money on groceries, thats for sure. This last grocery bill was $383 - and thats just dinners and fruits that I'll eat during the day. Josh and I still down our own trips for Milk, Cereal, Bread, and Smart Ones and stuff like that for my lunches. I'm just tired of coming home and having someone pissed off at me for something that is entirely not my fault.
It also sounds like my brothers Divorce is going to be uglier than previously expected. My brother was just planning on them having joint custody of the kids, but it sounds like Cheryl is going to demand full custody, and in return, so would Craig. Cheryl can't support herself, let alone those kids, financially or emotionally. Craig would not only be stuck with paying child support for three kids, but would also be paying alimony to Cheryl because she's been out of work for the past 11 years, and working at Target part time for the past 6 months. Ridiculous.
In other news, the scale is all over the place. I was up almost 3lbs yesterday from Saturday, which - isn't okay (or explainable). I'm still having issues with my "regularity" in that, I'm just not going. I took a pill last night which solved that problem this morning, bringing the scale back down, but I'm still up from what I should be. I'm also expecting a visit from my Aunt Flo any day now which I'm sure doesn't help either, but, its certainly not helping my motivation at all.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day 36; Spoke Too Soon
So maybe I got a little bit ahead of myself. I'm not yet out of the 140's as I weighed in at exactly 140.0. But it is a 1lb loss that I can be proud of. And because I've lost a total of 5.4lbs, I got my 5lb sticker!
This week I am promising to myself to be accountable. I can't get mad at myself for not losing the weight if I'm not tracking, that's just silly. To be honest, its a wonder I lost any weight these past two weeks at all. So, to not mess up all the hard work I've done, I just need to keep at it.
After weighing in, I met Josh over at the mall and we walked around before having our belated Valentines Dinner at Macaroni Grill. I bought two pairs of work pants and a shirt at Express, though I think I'm going to be returning the shirt. I like it, and I think it looks cute - but it has elastic around the waist and I'm just not comfortable enough yet to wear something like that. It's all in my head, but I'm just not there. The pants though, look fantastic. Size 8's! And they aren't too tight!
Josh also found some jeans at American Eagle for $14, so we both we happy.
Dinner was amazing, and it was so nice to go out with Josh and have a nice dinner. We ordered wine, and I had the Prime Pork Loin with Asparagus, and Josh had the Spaghetti with Ricotta Meatballs that was delicious. And the bread, always amazing! It was exactly what we needed.
This week I am promising to myself to be accountable. I can't get mad at myself for not losing the weight if I'm not tracking, that's just silly. To be honest, its a wonder I lost any weight these past two weeks at all. So, to not mess up all the hard work I've done, I just need to keep at it.
After weighing in, I met Josh over at the mall and we walked around before having our belated Valentines Dinner at Macaroni Grill. I bought two pairs of work pants and a shirt at Express, though I think I'm going to be returning the shirt. I like it, and I think it looks cute - but it has elastic around the waist and I'm just not comfortable enough yet to wear something like that. It's all in my head, but I'm just not there. The pants though, look fantastic. Size 8's! And they aren't too tight!
Josh also found some jeans at American Eagle for $14, so we both we happy.
Dinner was amazing, and it was so nice to go out with Josh and have a nice dinner. We ordered wine, and I had the Prime Pork Loin with Asparagus, and Josh had the Spaghetti with Ricotta Meatballs that was delicious. And the bread, always amazing! It was exactly what we needed.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 34, Motivation
In this day and age, when society tells us that women should be thin, be a size 0, it's easy to feel bad about yourself. It's easy to get caught up in that and strive to make society happy.
Sure, I'd like to be thinner and feel more comfortable in my clothes and about my body, not always avoiding trying on clothes because it won't fit over certain lumps and bulges, or because it's just unflattering. Sure, I'd like to be able to wear a bikini, and not be ashamed to walk around the pool or on the beach and wonder how much of me jiggles as I walk.
But the truth of it all is that I want to be healthy. I'm in the "overweight" range right now, meaning that my BMI is between 25.1 and 29, and with this comes various medical issues. High cholesterol is something I've dealt with all my life, and with my dads recent history with heart attacks, thats a big concern.
But I also see my family struggling with, or giving up on their weight. I love my Mom to death, but I don't want to be like her. She has trouble walking around, she gets tired easily and is always in pain. She can't run around and play with her grandkids. She isn't even able to go with us to Disneyland because she can't stand or walk that long. I have her genes, and therefor, I have the potential to become that.
Even though my body will never go back to the way it was after I have kids, I want to be at my goal weight when I get pregnant. I don't want to have to lose the baby fat, plus the weight I've carried for most of my life in order to be a healthy Mom for my kids. I want to be an example for them as well, and teach them how to live a healthy lifestyle so that don't have to struggle with this like I have for the past 15 years.
I'm 26, married, and about to start a family in a couple of years - I'm not in the setting to be selfish about this choice. So sure, it'll be nice to be able to wear a bikini for a little bit, but it'll be priceless to have the health and energy to live a long and healthy life and watch my kids, and their kids grow up.
Sure, I'd like to be thinner and feel more comfortable in my clothes and about my body, not always avoiding trying on clothes because it won't fit over certain lumps and bulges, or because it's just unflattering. Sure, I'd like to be able to wear a bikini, and not be ashamed to walk around the pool or on the beach and wonder how much of me jiggles as I walk.
But the truth of it all is that I want to be healthy. I'm in the "overweight" range right now, meaning that my BMI is between 25.1 and 29, and with this comes various medical issues. High cholesterol is something I've dealt with all my life, and with my dads recent history with heart attacks, thats a big concern.
But I also see my family struggling with, or giving up on their weight. I love my Mom to death, but I don't want to be like her. She has trouble walking around, she gets tired easily and is always in pain. She can't run around and play with her grandkids. She isn't even able to go with us to Disneyland because she can't stand or walk that long. I have her genes, and therefor, I have the potential to become that.
Even though my body will never go back to the way it was after I have kids, I want to be at my goal weight when I get pregnant. I don't want to have to lose the baby fat, plus the weight I've carried for most of my life in order to be a healthy Mom for my kids. I want to be an example for them as well, and teach them how to live a healthy lifestyle so that don't have to struggle with this like I have for the past 15 years.
I'm 26, married, and about to start a family in a couple of years - I'm not in the setting to be selfish about this choice. So sure, it'll be nice to be able to wear a bikini for a little bit, but it'll be priceless to have the health and energy to live a long and healthy life and watch my kids, and their kids grow up.
Monday, February 21, 2011
I've been MIA - Please forgive me!?
So its been awhile since I've posted, and I hate to admit that I fell off the wagon for a little bit. I didn't weigh in last week, and that's partially due to a cold I woke up with Sunday morning that was wreaking havoc on me, and also due to being at work late on Wednesday. But mostly, I wanted to avoid the scale that day. I was up based on the scale at home, and I just wasn't ready to face that.
I stayed home on Thursday and Friday, and snacked, but I really really tried to stay in control, though I still wasn't tracking.
Saturday was my nephews birthday party, and there was El Pollo Loco with all the fixings, cupcakes, chips, dips, candy, and then it was Greggs birthday party with drinks, chips, dips, cakes. It could have been a total disaster. But it wasn't! I had made the decision the night before that I wasn't going to have a cupcake, or the mac&cheese, mashed potatoes, or tortillas that came with lunch. I ate one piece of chicken, some salad with a bit of creamy cilantro dressing, 1 small (1/2) of a taquito, and a small scoop of Sweet Corn Cake. I did snack on some Baked Tostitos, and some pretzel M&M's, but that was it. I didn't overdo it.
Then at Greggs, I snacked on the veggie plate they had, and only had 2 small drinks. I did end up eating a handful of Reduced Fat wheat thins, but I didn't succomb to the cake and chips, and buffalo wings. And the best part, I didn't miss it!
Yesterday Josh and I went to Subway for lunch, and I got my normal Turkey Breast on wheat with Swiss Cheese, which is a total of 9pts. I didn't get any chips, and didn't miss those either. Then we went to Young and Nino's, and Young had Oatmeal Raisin cookies baking, so I found a small one and only ate one. For dinner, we went to this Korean BBQ place where we all shared this big plate of meat. I was kinda hoping they would have some healthy sides with veggies, but they did not. So I had a couple bites of the sausage, 1 baby back rib (they are tiny), and some chicken. I avoided the sweet potato fries and the onion rings.
When I woke up this morning, I decided I needed to face the facts, get on the scale, and get back to tracking. I wasn't going to let this little road bump get in my way of reaching my goals, and I need to come to terms with the fact that this is going to happen again, and probably a few times, and thats okay - as long as I realize that I'm not on track, and do something to fix it.
Surprisingly enough, I must have not been too bad. I weighed in at 139.6. Down 1.4lbs from my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. Back in the 130's! Of course thats morning weight, and not my 5pm weigh-in weight, but it's in the right direction and I've got 3 days to get that number down even more.
See ya 140's (again).
I stayed home on Thursday and Friday, and snacked, but I really really tried to stay in control, though I still wasn't tracking.
Saturday was my nephews birthday party, and there was El Pollo Loco with all the fixings, cupcakes, chips, dips, candy, and then it was Greggs birthday party with drinks, chips, dips, cakes. It could have been a total disaster. But it wasn't! I had made the decision the night before that I wasn't going to have a cupcake, or the mac&cheese, mashed potatoes, or tortillas that came with lunch. I ate one piece of chicken, some salad with a bit of creamy cilantro dressing, 1 small (1/2) of a taquito, and a small scoop of Sweet Corn Cake. I did snack on some Baked Tostitos, and some pretzel M&M's, but that was it. I didn't overdo it.
Then at Greggs, I snacked on the veggie plate they had, and only had 2 small drinks. I did end up eating a handful of Reduced Fat wheat thins, but I didn't succomb to the cake and chips, and buffalo wings. And the best part, I didn't miss it!
Yesterday Josh and I went to Subway for lunch, and I got my normal Turkey Breast on wheat with Swiss Cheese, which is a total of 9pts. I didn't get any chips, and didn't miss those either. Then we went to Young and Nino's, and Young had Oatmeal Raisin cookies baking, so I found a small one and only ate one. For dinner, we went to this Korean BBQ place where we all shared this big plate of meat. I was kinda hoping they would have some healthy sides with veggies, but they did not. So I had a couple bites of the sausage, 1 baby back rib (they are tiny), and some chicken. I avoided the sweet potato fries and the onion rings.
When I woke up this morning, I decided I needed to face the facts, get on the scale, and get back to tracking. I wasn't going to let this little road bump get in my way of reaching my goals, and I need to come to terms with the fact that this is going to happen again, and probably a few times, and thats okay - as long as I realize that I'm not on track, and do something to fix it.
Surprisingly enough, I must have not been too bad. I weighed in at 139.6. Down 1.4lbs from my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. Back in the 130's! Of course thats morning weight, and not my 5pm weigh-in weight, but it's in the right direction and I've got 3 days to get that number down even more.
See ya 140's (again).
Monday, February 14, 2011
Day...Whatever; Sick.
So I didn't do so great over the weekend. Saturday was my sisters birthday and we spent the day at Victoria Gardens. We had lunch at Kabuki, and while the smart choice would have been the Hibachi Chicken, I had to get the Lotus on Fire Roll. I had that with a house salad and a Mojito.
After that we went to the movies and I managed to eat quite a few Junior Mints!
We walked around the mall forever...literally, hours! We passed by a Coach store and what was inside? My purse! One day, I will have her. Just not today.
I'm really not sure what face I'm making there, but it must be happiness!We stopped at Baskin Robbins and I had a kids size scoop of Jamoca. But by the time we got home I was starving, and grabbed the first thing I saw, which happened to be a slice of Cheese Pizza. I was still hungry after that so I opted for a healthier option of Beef Stew. But yeah, not good.
Sunday I woke up feeling AWFUL! My throat was sore and my sinuses were burning. I had grits and toast with jelly, and some juice for breakfast. For lunch I had beef stew, while the family got Taco Bell. I was doing well until Rachele told me there was an extra Taco, which I ate. I had 7 points going into dinner and figured I'd just have something light when the family decided to order chinese food from wongs, and I said, screw it, I'm enjoying my dinner.
So I wasn't AWFUL, but I wasn't good, and wasn't completely in control.
I will attempt to make up for it the next couple days so I don't have a gain - that would be devastating.
I wonder how much all this added snot weighs.
Gross, I know.
After that we went to the movies and I managed to eat quite a few Junior Mints!
We walked around the mall forever...literally, hours! We passed by a Coach store and what was inside? My purse! One day, I will have her. Just not today.
I'm really not sure what face I'm making there, but it must be happiness!We stopped at Baskin Robbins and I had a kids size scoop of Jamoca. But by the time we got home I was starving, and grabbed the first thing I saw, which happened to be a slice of Cheese Pizza. I was still hungry after that so I opted for a healthier option of Beef Stew. But yeah, not good.
Sunday I woke up feeling AWFUL! My throat was sore and my sinuses were burning. I had grits and toast with jelly, and some juice for breakfast. For lunch I had beef stew, while the family got Taco Bell. I was doing well until Rachele told me there was an extra Taco, which I ate. I had 7 points going into dinner and figured I'd just have something light when the family decided to order chinese food from wongs, and I said, screw it, I'm enjoying my dinner.
So I wasn't AWFUL, but I wasn't good, and wasn't completely in control.
I will attempt to make up for it the next couple days so I don't have a gain - that would be devastating.
I wonder how much all this added snot weighs.
Gross, I know.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Day 22, Weigh-in #3
Weigh-in Results
Week 3
My weigh-in day was last night, and let me tell you, I'm so happy! I lost another 1.8lbs, giving me a total weight loss of 4.4lbs in 3 weeks. I'm feeling skinnier, and my work pants are even starting to become lose. Even though its only 4.4, it feels like 10, and it feel AWESOME!
I am now starting my 4th week on this journey and I'm even more motivated than ever. If I lose 1.1lbs this week, I'll say goodbye to the 140's, and begin my journey in the 130's.
I'm a happy girl!
Week 4 Obstacles
Rachele's Birthday
We're doing a girls day out at the Victoria Gardens in Ontario. Getting our nails done and having lunch somewhere. I don't know where lunch will be, and what healthy choices I'll have. I hope it's some type of chain that requires their nutritionals to be posted. That would make life easier. I need to figure out the plan and prepare!
Week 3
My weigh-in day was last night, and let me tell you, I'm so happy! I lost another 1.8lbs, giving me a total weight loss of 4.4lbs in 3 weeks. I'm feeling skinnier, and my work pants are even starting to become lose. Even though its only 4.4, it feels like 10, and it feel AWESOME!
I am now starting my 4th week on this journey and I'm even more motivated than ever. If I lose 1.1lbs this week, I'll say goodbye to the 140's, and begin my journey in the 130's.
I'm a happy girl!
Week 4 Obstacles
Rachele's Birthday
We're doing a girls day out at the Victoria Gardens in Ontario. Getting our nails done and having lunch somewhere. I don't know where lunch will be, and what healthy choices I'll have. I hope it's some type of chain that requires their nutritionals to be posted. That would make life easier. I need to figure out the plan and prepare!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Day 20! Feeling Skinny!
I'm feeling thinner, even though technically I've only lost a few pounds. I'm hoping for another 1lb loss this week, which would put me at 3.6lbs. It's going slow, but the finish line doesn't seem so far off. In just a couple weeks, I'll once again be saying goodbye to the 140's and entering the 130's. And then hopefully in a few months, I can say goodbye to the 130's and enter the 120's. Somewhere I haven't been in almost 5 years, and I'm ready to be back there.
I'm still diligent in my tracking, and not going over my points. I'm not perfect everyweek, but I'm in control, and I have so much confidence in myself that I'm not going to give up this time like so many times before.
I'm still diligent in my tracking, and not going over my points. I'm not perfect everyweek, but I'm in control, and I have so much confidence in myself that I'm not going to give up this time like so many times before.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Wow, I'm Such A Jackass
The weekend started out really good, actually. Saturday was my brother in laws birthday, which we were celebrating at Mexicasa in Anaheim. We didn't have to be there until three, so Josh and I went and did a hike at Rocky Peak. It's just under 5 miles, and is fairly steep. I'm still feeling the soreness a bit in my bum, from pushing myself up those hills.
After getting home and showering, we made our way to Anaheim for Josh's birthday. They really didn't have anything "diet" friendly, but I ended up having 2 Chicken Enchiladas, that according to my book, were 13 points. I would have put them at more, but hey, I'll take it. I didn't have any rice or beans, and didn't touch the Tortilla chips that kept on magically appearing in front of me. After dinner, my family decided to go to Baskin Robbins. I didn't get anything, and I was alright with that.
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What isn't a nice fun memory, is how drunk I got. The margaritas were sooo good, and they just kept on coming. I really started feeling the affects towards the end of the night, which is apparent by my lack of knowledge of the last half of the evening. I remember feeling absolutely awful, and throwing up out of Josh's window on the 101, going 70mph. But Josh is awesome and took care of me throughout the night, and on the plus side, I got rid of all those extra calories I consumed.
Sunday was a lot of fun. We had people over for the Superbowl, and I think we all had a good time. I made sure to track the points for what I was eating, and even though I went over by about 10 points, I had planned on letting myself use some of my allowance points yesterday. It was nice getting to "cheat" a little, and I didn't feel deprived. I was in control!
Now, time to start another week. Weigh-in is in 2 days, and I need to make the most of it. I am in charge of making dinner tonight, which means I won't be going to the gym, but hopefully I can work out at home a bit. I subscribed to some workout shows on Hulu+ that I can follow in the back room.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Day 16: Crisis Averted
Today I am talking about two separate crisis....'s. Whats the plural for crisis? Anyway.
I had to go in to the eye doctor so she could dilate my eyes and do a more thorough exam. You know, because I'm going blind! Anyway. She did the exam and all that and it was time to go home. She asked me if I felt okay driving, and I looked around and was like, yeah, I think I'll be good. And I get on the road, and IT IS NOT GOOD! The lights from all the cars were blurring together into just one big kaleidescope of light coming from all directions. I could make out the cars in front of me by their tail lights, but had difficulty deciphering their speed and when they had stopped. I didn't dare change lanes because that would require looking in my side mirrors with the even worse reflecting of bright white lights. Luckily, I made it home safe and sound. Crisis averted #1.
The next crisis had to do with dinner. Chicken pot pie. Chickeny, potatoey goodness with Pillsbury dough layered on top. Two sheets worth! I thought the recipe made 8 servings, and when I got home and looked at the recipe it was 6 servings which upped the points value to 15. And then we used different potatoes, which upped it to 16. Not a lot of bang for my buck. Luckily, we discovered we had only used 1lb of chicken and not two like the recipe called for and it did serve 8 after all, bring the points value back to 10. Phew! Crisis averted #2.
Today is Friday, and payday! Finally. I will be putting a pretty good chunk towards paying off my last credit card. I can't wait! Friday also means I get to treat myself to Subway! It's just a few blocks, so I always walk there, and get in some exercise, and I think I still have enough on my gift card to get me one more meal. Sweet!
Glasses are giving me vertigo. Sigh.
I had to go in to the eye doctor so she could dilate my eyes and do a more thorough exam. You know, because I'm going blind! Anyway. She did the exam and all that and it was time to go home. She asked me if I felt okay driving, and I looked around and was like, yeah, I think I'll be good. And I get on the road, and IT IS NOT GOOD! The lights from all the cars were blurring together into just one big kaleidescope of light coming from all directions. I could make out the cars in front of me by their tail lights, but had difficulty deciphering their speed and when they had stopped. I didn't dare change lanes because that would require looking in my side mirrors with the even worse reflecting of bright white lights. Luckily, I made it home safe and sound. Crisis averted #1.
The next crisis had to do with dinner. Chicken pot pie. Chickeny, potatoey goodness with Pillsbury dough layered on top. Two sheets worth! I thought the recipe made 8 servings, and when I got home and looked at the recipe it was 6 servings which upped the points value to 15. And then we used different potatoes, which upped it to 16. Not a lot of bang for my buck. Luckily, we discovered we had only used 1lb of chicken and not two like the recipe called for and it did serve 8 after all, bring the points value back to 10. Phew! Crisis averted #2.
Today is Friday, and payday! Finally. I will be putting a pretty good chunk towards paying off my last credit card. I can't wait! Friday also means I get to treat myself to Subway! It's just a few blocks, so I always walk there, and get in some exercise, and I think I still have enough on my gift card to get me one more meal. Sweet!
Glasses are giving me vertigo. Sigh.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Day 15: Weigh-in Results!
Weigh-in Results!
I lost 1.8lbs last week, for a total of 2.6 in 2 weeks. I'm so pleased. And not only am I not slacking off, I'm actually getting more into it, being more precise with the tracking and realizing its importance. I'm not guessing, or telling myself, "Oh, I probably have enough points for that so I don't have to worry about counting them" like I've done countless times before.
And the best part is having a clean slate. I'm approaching this weight loss on a week to week outlook. Who cares about last week and who cares about this week. I just need to succeed THIS week.
Week Three Obstacles
Obstacle #1: Mexi-Casa. Your run of the mill mexican restaurant with all the fried tortilla chips, greasy tacos and cheesy burritos you could ask for. They don't have a menu online and they certainly don't have their nutritional's posted. But, it just so happens to be Josh-n-Laws FAVORITE restaurant. I'm still unsure about what to order that won't break the bank, but I'll figure it out. Chicken Fajitas seem to be recommended on most websites.
Obstacle #2. Superbowl. With BBQ, and Chips, and Dips and snacks to my hearts galore, with friends and family all participating in the binge. This is going to take some major planning, not only with making sure there are foods there for me to eat, but also portioning out and tracking some of the unhealthy things too. My goal is to have everything I will be eating planned and portioned out before anyone even gets there, perhaps even already set to the side. I really do not want to use my allowance points this week, and hopefully see another 1lb+ loss next week.
Life
In other news, I have an eye appointment after work. They're dilating my eyes to do a more thorough exam to hopefully figure out why my eyes are changing so quickly. I'm almost not sure what I want to hear. That yes, there IS something wrong, or NO, we don't see anything wrong, you're eyes are just changing quickly.
Random
I love my husband. He's the absolute best, and I know I don't show my appreciation nearly enough. He's kind, and loving, and is always helping around the house without complaint. Basically, he's awesome. He'd be REALLY awesome if he ordered me Flowers on Valentines Day to be delivered to my work, lol.
I lost 1.8lbs last week, for a total of 2.6 in 2 weeks. I'm so pleased. And not only am I not slacking off, I'm actually getting more into it, being more precise with the tracking and realizing its importance. I'm not guessing, or telling myself, "Oh, I probably have enough points for that so I don't have to worry about counting them" like I've done countless times before.
And the best part is having a clean slate. I'm approaching this weight loss on a week to week outlook. Who cares about last week and who cares about this week. I just need to succeed THIS week.
Week Three Obstacles
Obstacle #1: Mexi-Casa. Your run of the mill mexican restaurant with all the fried tortilla chips, greasy tacos and cheesy burritos you could ask for. They don't have a menu online and they certainly don't have their nutritional's posted. But, it just so happens to be Josh-n-Laws FAVORITE restaurant. I'm still unsure about what to order that won't break the bank, but I'll figure it out. Chicken Fajitas seem to be recommended on most websites.
Obstacle #2. Superbowl. With BBQ, and Chips, and Dips and snacks to my hearts galore, with friends and family all participating in the binge. This is going to take some major planning, not only with making sure there are foods there for me to eat, but also portioning out and tracking some of the unhealthy things too. My goal is to have everything I will be eating planned and portioned out before anyone even gets there, perhaps even already set to the side. I really do not want to use my allowance points this week, and hopefully see another 1lb+ loss next week.
Life
In other news, I have an eye appointment after work. They're dilating my eyes to do a more thorough exam to hopefully figure out why my eyes are changing so quickly. I'm almost not sure what I want to hear. That yes, there IS something wrong, or NO, we don't see anything wrong, you're eyes are just changing quickly.
Random
I love my husband. He's the absolute best, and I know I don't show my appreciation nearly enough. He's kind, and loving, and is always helping around the house without complaint. Basically, he's awesome. He'd be REALLY awesome if he ordered me Flowers on Valentines Day to be delivered to my work, lol.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Day #14, Weigh-in Day!
Today is my second weigh in, and I'm looking forward to seeing the number. I know its over 1lb - hopefully closer to 2, but thats a number I can be proud of. I worked hard for it!
I planned out my meals, figured out points for the dinners my Mom makes, and measured and weighed my little heart away. I'm doing my best to not let myself become complacent with the program, and the new program is helping to avoid that. I can no longer guess at the points - which is good, and hopefully tonight I'll be able to get my points calculator instead of always having to go to a computer to figure it out.
I've always been sure to stay on top of tracking, as I know that will be major factor in succeeding. I've been trying to not only keep my paper tracker, but also tracking on the e-tools provided on the website.
Joshs show, Seriously Funny Kids, premiered last night. We all sat around and watched it together, and it was cute. My mom was even able to pause it right in time to see Josh's name in the credits, and while Josh wasn't all that excited about it, Rachele took a picture with her cell phone. Hopefully, they'll decide to do Season 2, and Josh can keep working for another 5 months. That would be great! That would take us until June, and if he can get another 3 month show after that, we'll be set and we can move in September, and we'll save enough that we can buy this:
I planned out my meals, figured out points for the dinners my Mom makes, and measured and weighed my little heart away. I'm doing my best to not let myself become complacent with the program, and the new program is helping to avoid that. I can no longer guess at the points - which is good, and hopefully tonight I'll be able to get my points calculator instead of always having to go to a computer to figure it out.
I've always been sure to stay on top of tracking, as I know that will be major factor in succeeding. I've been trying to not only keep my paper tracker, but also tracking on the e-tools provided on the website.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Day 13, Measuring!
Diet
My parents, and Josh, have laughed at me the last couple nights because of my precise weighing and measuring of the food I'm eating. Yes, I can't blame them. It looks pretty silly when I'm sitting at the table serving up my food with a lime-green measuring cup. Whatevs. I even weighed my meat last night to make sure I had exactly 3oz. Okay, so maybe it was 3.05oz. Close enough. Regardless, I'm so proud of myself for not slacking.
Tonight is Taco Tuesday and that worries me slightly. Mostly for the tortillas fried in oil. How do you count points for that? Perhaps I'll make myself a soft taco.
Life
Got some time to talk to my Dad a bit more about my brother and the big "D". My brother is having a really hard time, being that ultimately it was his decision. I couldn't even imagine how scary that must be to have spent 11 years together, have 3 kids, and essentially have to start over. But, I know Craig isn't happy, and you can't spend your life with someone you don't love. Hopefully they'll get through this okay, and the kids will adjust to it.
Random Thoughts
I really really like Brian McCann. I think I had a dream about him last night. What's this infatuation about?! Where did it come from? I feel like a teenage girl again, which is really funny. Luckily, Josh is cool with it. I think he's got a few crushes of his own.
Tonight is Taco Tuesday and that worries me slightly. Mostly for the tortillas fried in oil. How do you count points for that? Perhaps I'll make myself a soft taco.
Life
Got some time to talk to my Dad a bit more about my brother and the big "D". My brother is having a really hard time, being that ultimately it was his decision. I couldn't even imagine how scary that must be to have spent 11 years together, have 3 kids, and essentially have to start over. But, I know Craig isn't happy, and you can't spend your life with someone you don't love. Hopefully they'll get through this okay, and the kids will adjust to it.
Random Thoughts
Monday, January 31, 2011
Day #12 - So Far, So Good (and Life)
I know I'm not supposed to, but I made up for it by eating less than my normal points yesterday, which wasn't hard considering I had 16 points left after dinner. I had a brownie, and 2 York Peppermint Patties for dessert and still had 8points left.
I'm headed back to the gym tonight as I haven't been in almost two weeks. I will be doing the TurboKick class at 5:30, which hopefully won't render me useless for the next few days like the Boot Camp class did. That was insane.
Now, on to life. The move has been most likely pushed to the middle of September, which is good as it gives us another month to save and the weather will be a bit nicer for our friends who are coming out with us. My job situation is still up in the air, and the latest I heard is that corporate is pushing more for a full transfer, meaning I'll work for a producer in the Atlanta office, as opposed to working for Darrow here in L.A. remotely from the Atlanta office. While, a job is good, I really enjoy working for Darrow, and like our clients. Changing to a different Producer scares me as more often than not, they're usually complete assholes. So we'll see!
I also found out last night the my Brother and his wife are getting a divorce. We've seen it coming for awhile now, so it's no surprise. But I just hate to think about how it'll affect the kids. Braxton already has anger issues, and I see him spiraling downward unless they really work hard to make sure he is adjusting. I hate seeing all those shows on A&E like intervention, where these kids became addicted to drugs after their parents divorced.
They've talked about having one central living space that would essentially be the kids house, and Craig and Cheryl would move in and out depending on whos time it is with the kids. I know they're doing that to make it easier on the kids, but I really don't see it being any better than having the kids go from house to house.
Anyway - that's about all I know.
Crazyness.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Weigh-In #1, Day 9
I lost 0.8lbs. Needless to say, I was disappointed. I could have done better. I used up almost all my allowance points, which explains the small loss, but it IS a loss, and I can't lose sight of that. I didn't gain it overnight, and I'm not going to lose it overnight either.
I'd also like to blame it on my lack of, you know, "going". It had been a couple of days, and was feeling pretty bloated, though no matter how often I tried it just wasn't happening. This is TMI, I know, but I took a laxative yesterday afternoon and it finally kicked in this morning.
But I know I need to do better with not using my allowance points. I didn't need to use them and I did just because of a lack of planning and lack of discipline.
It was a really hard week, aside from weight loss. I worked 10+ hours a day, usually without a lunch break, and it was just really stressful. People pissed me off left and right, and I'm physically and emotionally exhausted.
I'm going to the gym after work today because even though I'm tired, I need some physical activity. Although, maybe not - I really hurt my back somehow. Would it be that bad if I just went home and played the part of a couch potato for a night. I don't think so. Would it be that bad if I went to Target and bought all the Twilight movies and had a movie marathon. I think Josh would probably strangle me.
I'm tired.
3 hours of work.
I avoided eating a donut today. That's pretty good. I had egg beaters, with a english muffin, and subway for lunch. So far...so good. One meal at a time.
This post is so random.
Zzzzzzzzz.
I'd also like to blame it on my lack of, you know, "going". It had been a couple of days, and was feeling pretty bloated, though no matter how often I tried it just wasn't happening. This is TMI, I know, but I took a laxative yesterday afternoon and it finally kicked in this morning.
But I know I need to do better with not using my allowance points. I didn't need to use them and I did just because of a lack of planning and lack of discipline.
It was a really hard week, aside from weight loss. I worked 10+ hours a day, usually without a lunch break, and it was just really stressful. People pissed me off left and right, and I'm physically and emotionally exhausted.
I'm going to the gym after work today because even though I'm tired, I need some physical activity. Although, maybe not - I really hurt my back somehow. Would it be that bad if I just went home and played the part of a couch potato for a night. I don't think so. Would it be that bad if I went to Target and bought all the Twilight movies and had a movie marathon. I think Josh would probably strangle me.
I'm tired.
3 hours of work.
I avoided eating a donut today. That's pretty good. I had egg beaters, with a english muffin, and subway for lunch. So far...so good. One meal at a time.
This post is so random.
Zzzzzzzzz.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Inspiration #1
So I was reading another blog that suggested posting pictures of their inspiration.
Today will focus on something I'd like to wear, and feel comfortable in this summer. I know I won't ever look like the model, but, I one day hope to be able to buy a bikini. Here are a couple that I love, and might just break down and buy - along with the tankini top option to tide me over until I'm bikini top ready:
Today will focus on something I'd like to wear, and feel comfortable in this summer. I know I won't ever look like the model, but, I one day hope to be able to buy a bikini. Here are a couple that I love, and might just break down and buy - along with the tankini top option to tide me over until I'm bikini top ready:
Day #5! A little hiccup, but thats ok!
Saturday we had planned on spending the day over at Young and Nino's. Josh was working that morning right near their place so Josh (Baker) picked me up and we met Josh once he was done with work.
Young made this incredible dinner for us, which was quite unexpected, but delicious! It was a Stuffed Pizza, essentially a pizza casserole with a bisquick crust, and amazingly good. I was able to calculate the points and discovered that it was 12pts, which was fine since I had 17 points left. I also ended up eating a stuffed mushroom she had made which was 3pts. Again, delicious, and also within my points budget.
Until we left to go see a movie. We had planned on seeing True Grit, but while we were standing in line, they announced they only had seats in the front row so we decided to leave, and get some Fro Yo on the way home. The place we stopped at only took cash, which we had none of, and discovered a Baskin Robbins across the street. Okay, I said, I'll get a kids scoop of their low-fat menu. Uh huh, yeah right. I ended up getting a scoop of Mint Chocolate Chip and Jamoca instead. Can we say 18 points? I also ended up snacking (just a little bit) back at the house, and had a hard cider. So I totally blew that day, but I didn't let it bother me too much. I know I stayed within my "Weekly Allowance Points", and the possibility of a weight loss this Wednesday is just about certain.
Sunday was a new day, and a new start. I woke up and Josh and I went grocery shopping and I stocked up on fruits and veggies and egg beaters and salad, and some Lean Cuisines (they were on sale for $1.49!!). I got home and made some veggie scrambled eggs with an english muffin for brunch, had some fruit and veggies for a snack that afternoon, and ate a veggie stew for dinner. I actually had 16 points remaining, so I indulged in having 2 pieces of bread with my dinner, and then had 6 mini-york peppermint patties for dessert.
I'm feeling great and even though the weight isn't gone yet, my confidence is up 100%. It's probably all in my mind, but my pants actually felt a bit looser this morning.
I prepared some great food for myself this morning. I cut up fruits and veggies, made a salad, packed healthy food options like a lean cuisine lasagna, and some light yogurt. My bag was so packed I could barely get it open, and I realized this is really a lifestyle I can get used to. I do need to learn some filling lunch options other than frozen meals, but one step at a time.
Tonight I will be going to a TurboKick class at the gym, which hopefully will agree with me more than that BootCamp class I attended. Not only did I quit halfway into it, I was literally sore for the next 5 days. 5 days!
Okay - quick run down of points!
Breakfast: 3pts
Thomas Honey Wheat Double Fiber English Muffin, with Spray Butter and Cinnamon and Sugar sprinkled on top - 3pts
1 Cutie - 0pts
1 Coffee - 0pts
Snack: 3pts
Yoplait Light Berry Tort Yogurt - 3pts
Lunch: 9pts
Lean Cuisine Lasagna - 8pts
Salad with mushrooms, red and green peppers - 0pts
Feta Cheese - 1pt
Vinegar Dressing - 0pt
Carrots and Cucumbers - 0pts
Snack: 0pts
Strawberries, Blueberries and a Cutie - 0pts
Coffee - 0pts
Thats a total of 15 points, leaving me with 14 points for dinner. See all the food I get to eat! I'm totally loving this new plan, and I can't wait to see the results on Wednesday at my first weigh in!
Young made this incredible dinner for us, which was quite unexpected, but delicious! It was a Stuffed Pizza, essentially a pizza casserole with a bisquick crust, and amazingly good. I was able to calculate the points and discovered that it was 12pts, which was fine since I had 17 points left. I also ended up eating a stuffed mushroom she had made which was 3pts. Again, delicious, and also within my points budget.
Until we left to go see a movie. We had planned on seeing True Grit, but while we were standing in line, they announced they only had seats in the front row so we decided to leave, and get some Fro Yo on the way home. The place we stopped at only took cash, which we had none of, and discovered a Baskin Robbins across the street. Okay, I said, I'll get a kids scoop of their low-fat menu. Uh huh, yeah right. I ended up getting a scoop of Mint Chocolate Chip and Jamoca instead. Can we say 18 points? I also ended up snacking (just a little bit) back at the house, and had a hard cider. So I totally blew that day, but I didn't let it bother me too much. I know I stayed within my "Weekly Allowance Points", and the possibility of a weight loss this Wednesday is just about certain.
Sunday was a new day, and a new start. I woke up and Josh and I went grocery shopping and I stocked up on fruits and veggies and egg beaters and salad, and some Lean Cuisines (they were on sale for $1.49!!). I got home and made some veggie scrambled eggs with an english muffin for brunch, had some fruit and veggies for a snack that afternoon, and ate a veggie stew for dinner. I actually had 16 points remaining, so I indulged in having 2 pieces of bread with my dinner, and then had 6 mini-york peppermint patties for dessert.
I'm feeling great and even though the weight isn't gone yet, my confidence is up 100%. It's probably all in my mind, but my pants actually felt a bit looser this morning.
I prepared some great food for myself this morning. I cut up fruits and veggies, made a salad, packed healthy food options like a lean cuisine lasagna, and some light yogurt. My bag was so packed I could barely get it open, and I realized this is really a lifestyle I can get used to. I do need to learn some filling lunch options other than frozen meals, but one step at a time.
Tonight I will be going to a TurboKick class at the gym, which hopefully will agree with me more than that BootCamp class I attended. Not only did I quit halfway into it, I was literally sore for the next 5 days. 5 days!
Okay - quick run down of points!
Breakfast: 3pts
Thomas Honey Wheat Double Fiber English Muffin, with Spray Butter and Cinnamon and Sugar sprinkled on top - 3pts
1 Cutie - 0pts
1 Coffee - 0pts
Snack: 3pts
Yoplait Light Berry Tort Yogurt - 3pts
Lunch: 9pts
Lean Cuisine Lasagna - 8pts
Salad with mushrooms, red and green peppers - 0pts
Feta Cheese - 1pt
Vinegar Dressing - 0pt
Carrots and Cucumbers - 0pts
Snack: 0pts
Strawberries, Blueberries and a Cutie - 0pts
Coffee - 0pts
Thats a total of 15 points, leaving me with 14 points for dinner. See all the food I get to eat! I'm totally loving this new plan, and I can't wait to see the results on Wednesday at my first weigh in!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Day 2 - Still on the wagon!
So it's day 2 of following the new Weight Watchers program, and I'm happy to say that I'm really enjoying it. I'm still not drinking enough water, but its a work in progress. I'm staying within my points, and I love the approach of this new program. I still haven't gone to the grocery store to stock up on the stuff that will really sustain me throughout the day, but I've been able to fit the food currently in the house into the program, dessert and all.
I'm sitting at home now watching TV, and I really am struggling with not walking into the kitchen and finding something to snack on. For some reason, thats something I struggle with here. If I were in my own apartment, I don't think I'd have this problem.
Tonight will be my first real obstacle, and I haven't quite figured out what approach I want to take. We're going out to a bar with friends, and I can either restrict myself completely and stay within my points, or I can splurge a bit and use some of my allowance points. It's nice to know that I have the choice.
Now the question is, what to do for dinner?
I'm sitting at home now watching TV, and I really am struggling with not walking into the kitchen and finding something to snack on. For some reason, thats something I struggle with here. If I were in my own apartment, I don't think I'd have this problem.
Tonight will be my first real obstacle, and I haven't quite figured out what approach I want to take. We're going out to a bar with friends, and I can either restrict myself completely and stay within my points, or I can splurge a bit and use some of my allowance points. It's nice to know that I have the choice.
Now the question is, what to do for dinner?
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
A New Start, Attempt #76
I am once again going to try this diet thing. Not a temporary fix, but a life long change. I need to change my mindset about how much I can eat, and about what exactly I'm shoving into my face. I have to take care of this body if I want to be alive and mobile when my grandchildren are around, and not be limited by my size and health.
I am starting a new life in Georgia in 8 months, and I'd really prefer to start it without the struggles of being overweight. Which means I have 8 months to lose 15-20 pounds. I know I can do it, because I've done it before and then some.
It will be a challenge to not graze on the unhealthy foods that my Mom keeps stocked in the house, and to not let her naivity of unhealthy foods persuade me into making unhealthy choices. I'm doing this because I don't want to be in her shoes at her age, which means I need to not make the same dietary choices she has made that got her to where she is today. I love my Mom, but that is one area that I don't want to be like her.
Food is not a priority in life. It does not dictate happiness, or how much fun I might be having. Food is fuel for my body. I need to give it just enough to allow me to live, and not a calorie more. Food is not a lifestyle, it is a tool - and thats the mindset I need to get into.
So here's to week #1. (I might have had half a donut today, but in my defense, that was before I decided to return to this journey).
(Here's also to forgiving myself to my slip-ups and mistakes, because no one is perfect).
I am starting a new life in Georgia in 8 months, and I'd really prefer to start it without the struggles of being overweight. Which means I have 8 months to lose 15-20 pounds. I know I can do it, because I've done it before and then some.
It will be a challenge to not graze on the unhealthy foods that my Mom keeps stocked in the house, and to not let her naivity of unhealthy foods persuade me into making unhealthy choices. I'm doing this because I don't want to be in her shoes at her age, which means I need to not make the same dietary choices she has made that got her to where she is today. I love my Mom, but that is one area that I don't want to be like her.
Food is not a priority in life. It does not dictate happiness, or how much fun I might be having. Food is fuel for my body. I need to give it just enough to allow me to live, and not a calorie more. Food is not a lifestyle, it is a tool - and thats the mindset I need to get into.
So here's to week #1. (I might have had half a donut today, but in my defense, that was before I decided to return to this journey).
(Here's also to forgiving myself to my slip-ups and mistakes, because no one is perfect).
Monday, November 22, 2010
Annndd....I'm sick.
I've felt it coming for awhile now. For the past month, Josh and I have been running arounds like chickens with our heads cut off. We didn't have a chance to rest, and when we weren't at work, we were cleaning, packing, running errands, painting, etc. Getting ready for the move was exhausting, on top of the emotional toll of my Dad having Quadruple Bypass Surgery, and my Mom having multiple ailments (Chest paints = turned out to be nothing, MRI that found a spot on her thyroid = turned out to be nothing, ongoing feet/arthritis problems, dizziness/vertigo, and now the dr's found something on her mammogram).
I'd feel the sore throat in the mornings but it would go away. I think all the adrenaline of just going going goin kept me healthy long enough to get through it. But now that we've moved in and things have slowed down a bit, though not a lot, it's hit. The right side of my throat and ear are in constant pain. Swallowing, yawning, sneezing - it all hurts. And I've got a feeling this is just the beginning.
Oh the joy.
I'd feel the sore throat in the mornings but it would go away. I think all the adrenaline of just going going goin kept me healthy long enough to get through it. But now that we've moved in and things have slowed down a bit, though not a lot, it's hit. The right side of my throat and ear are in constant pain. Swallowing, yawning, sneezing - it all hurts. And I've got a feeling this is just the beginning.
Oh the joy.
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