This week was a week of gains.
I gained a lot of emotional turmoil, from both work and home. I don't feel respected by some of my coworkers in my unit, and am having some issues at home when it comes to dinner. It sounds silly, but it made for a really crappy couple of days.
I also gained a pound. I wasn't expecting it, and certainly didn't deserve it. I did have a couple of days where I did go over my points, but nothing to warrant a weight gain. I am going to go ahead and blame it on my "special time" that decided to start the morning of my weigh-in.
And my other gain, would be my raise. A raise is good, right? But is a 3.6% raise all that great when you're 33% below the midpoint salary for your position. I don't know...I was disappointed. At the end of the year, it'll come out to be about $1200, before taxes. So I'll see, what, maybe half of that. While my raise was mediocre, I had a great review, and it sounds like everyone is pleased with my work ethic.
We're still attempting to see what my job situation is going to be like when I move. As of right now, staying with Wells Fargo almost seems like a dead end. We're still trying, and I now Darrow doesn't want to lose me, but I think he's just trying to convince Wells Fargo as a whole, not to let me go, even if that means finding me a position in the Atlanta office for another producer.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Ups and Downs
Life is not always fun and games. Like now for example. I've been having issues with one of my coworkers. Technically we work in the same unit, but I've spent maybe 15-20 minutes total talking to her in person in the last 2 1/2 years we've worked together. She's a crazy cat lady who doesn't shower, or at least doesn't look like it, and half of the time, my pajamas look more professional than what she wears here. She has probably one of the most secluded cubicles in the office, which doesn't help that she's one
of the most solitary people here. She's set in her ways and doesn't listen to any suggestions I have. She's lazy and gives me all of her brainless "clerical" work that she feels is too beneath her to spend her time on. I'm starting to get fed up with being degraded by her day in and day out, through our limited interaction, that I'm starting to include smart-ass remarks in my email replies to her. I just can't stand it.
Things at home aren't much better. My Mom expects us to start cooking dinner if we get home before her, which, I usually do. I don't mind helping, or starting something, but a lot of the food she makes, I don't know how to make. We've told her that all she has to do is call, text or leave a note saying "hey, if you get home first, do this, do that" and I'll do it. But she expects us to be able to know what exactly she wants to have to dinner and what exactly we need to do to prepare it.
Last night my Mom got home, and after a few minutes we get up to go see what we can help with to get dinner ready. As soon as we enter the kitchen my Dad waves us out because apparently my Mom is ALREADY pissed off and has ranted to my Dad. Dad ended up picking up Tacos and while Josh, my Dad and I sat at the table, she sat by herself in the living room. It's ridiculous. Josh and I aren't asking her to cook us dinner - we'd be happy just making a sandwich or a bowl of cereal - but because we aren't mind readers, we get in trouble. It makes me want to just stop having dinners with them all together. It'd save us money on groceries, thats for sure. This last grocery bill was $383 - and thats just dinners and fruits that I'll eat during the day. Josh and I still down our own trips for Milk, Cereal, Bread, and Smart Ones and stuff like that for my lunches. I'm just tired of coming home and having someone pissed off at me for something that is entirely not my fault.
It also sounds like my brothers Divorce is going to be uglier than previously expected. My brother was just planning on them having joint custody of the kids, but it sounds like Cheryl is going to demand full custody, and in return, so would Craig. Cheryl can't support herself, let alone those kids, financially or emotionally. Craig would not only be stuck with paying child support for three kids, but would also be paying alimony to Cheryl because she's been out of work for the past 11 years, and working at Target part time for the past 6 months. Ridiculous.
In other news, the scale is all over the place. I was up almost 3lbs yesterday from Saturday, which - isn't okay (or explainable). I'm still having issues with my "regularity" in that, I'm just not going. I took a pill last night which solved that problem this morning, bringing the scale back down, but I'm still up from what I should be. I'm also expecting a visit from my Aunt Flo any day now which I'm sure doesn't help either, but, its certainly not helping my motivation at all.
of the most solitary people here. She's set in her ways and doesn't listen to any suggestions I have. She's lazy and gives me all of her brainless "clerical" work that she feels is too beneath her to spend her time on. I'm starting to get fed up with being degraded by her day in and day out, through our limited interaction, that I'm starting to include smart-ass remarks in my email replies to her. I just can't stand it.
Things at home aren't much better. My Mom expects us to start cooking dinner if we get home before her, which, I usually do. I don't mind helping, or starting something, but a lot of the food she makes, I don't know how to make. We've told her that all she has to do is call, text or leave a note saying "hey, if you get home first, do this, do that" and I'll do it. But she expects us to be able to know what exactly she wants to have to dinner and what exactly we need to do to prepare it.
Last night my Mom got home, and after a few minutes we get up to go see what we can help with to get dinner ready. As soon as we enter the kitchen my Dad waves us out because apparently my Mom is ALREADY pissed off and has ranted to my Dad. Dad ended up picking up Tacos and while Josh, my Dad and I sat at the table, she sat by herself in the living room. It's ridiculous. Josh and I aren't asking her to cook us dinner - we'd be happy just making a sandwich or a bowl of cereal - but because we aren't mind readers, we get in trouble. It makes me want to just stop having dinners with them all together. It'd save us money on groceries, thats for sure. This last grocery bill was $383 - and thats just dinners and fruits that I'll eat during the day. Josh and I still down our own trips for Milk, Cereal, Bread, and Smart Ones and stuff like that for my lunches. I'm just tired of coming home and having someone pissed off at me for something that is entirely not my fault.
It also sounds like my brothers Divorce is going to be uglier than previously expected. My brother was just planning on them having joint custody of the kids, but it sounds like Cheryl is going to demand full custody, and in return, so would Craig. Cheryl can't support herself, let alone those kids, financially or emotionally. Craig would not only be stuck with paying child support for three kids, but would also be paying alimony to Cheryl because she's been out of work for the past 11 years, and working at Target part time for the past 6 months. Ridiculous.
In other news, the scale is all over the place. I was up almost 3lbs yesterday from Saturday, which - isn't okay (or explainable). I'm still having issues with my "regularity" in that, I'm just not going. I took a pill last night which solved that problem this morning, bringing the scale back down, but I'm still up from what I should be. I'm also expecting a visit from my Aunt Flo any day now which I'm sure doesn't help either, but, its certainly not helping my motivation at all.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Day 36; Spoke Too Soon
So maybe I got a little bit ahead of myself. I'm not yet out of the 140's as I weighed in at exactly 140.0. But it is a 1lb loss that I can be proud of. And because I've lost a total of 5.4lbs, I got my 5lb sticker!
This week I am promising to myself to be accountable. I can't get mad at myself for not losing the weight if I'm not tracking, that's just silly. To be honest, its a wonder I lost any weight these past two weeks at all. So, to not mess up all the hard work I've done, I just need to keep at it.
After weighing in, I met Josh over at the mall and we walked around before having our belated Valentines Dinner at Macaroni Grill. I bought two pairs of work pants and a shirt at Express, though I think I'm going to be returning the shirt. I like it, and I think it looks cute - but it has elastic around the waist and I'm just not comfortable enough yet to wear something like that. It's all in my head, but I'm just not there. The pants though, look fantastic. Size 8's! And they aren't too tight!
Josh also found some jeans at American Eagle for $14, so we both we happy.
Dinner was amazing, and it was so nice to go out with Josh and have a nice dinner. We ordered wine, and I had the Prime Pork Loin with Asparagus, and Josh had the Spaghetti with Ricotta Meatballs that was delicious. And the bread, always amazing! It was exactly what we needed.
This week I am promising to myself to be accountable. I can't get mad at myself for not losing the weight if I'm not tracking, that's just silly. To be honest, its a wonder I lost any weight these past two weeks at all. So, to not mess up all the hard work I've done, I just need to keep at it.
After weighing in, I met Josh over at the mall and we walked around before having our belated Valentines Dinner at Macaroni Grill. I bought two pairs of work pants and a shirt at Express, though I think I'm going to be returning the shirt. I like it, and I think it looks cute - but it has elastic around the waist and I'm just not comfortable enough yet to wear something like that. It's all in my head, but I'm just not there. The pants though, look fantastic. Size 8's! And they aren't too tight!
Josh also found some jeans at American Eagle for $14, so we both we happy.
Dinner was amazing, and it was so nice to go out with Josh and have a nice dinner. We ordered wine, and I had the Prime Pork Loin with Asparagus, and Josh had the Spaghetti with Ricotta Meatballs that was delicious. And the bread, always amazing! It was exactly what we needed.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Day 34, Motivation
In this day and age, when society tells us that women should be thin, be a size 0, it's easy to feel bad about yourself. It's easy to get caught up in that and strive to make society happy.
Sure, I'd like to be thinner and feel more comfortable in my clothes and about my body, not always avoiding trying on clothes because it won't fit over certain lumps and bulges, or because it's just unflattering. Sure, I'd like to be able to wear a bikini, and not be ashamed to walk around the pool or on the beach and wonder how much of me jiggles as I walk.
But the truth of it all is that I want to be healthy. I'm in the "overweight" range right now, meaning that my BMI is between 25.1 and 29, and with this comes various medical issues. High cholesterol is something I've dealt with all my life, and with my dads recent history with heart attacks, thats a big concern.
But I also see my family struggling with, or giving up on their weight. I love my Mom to death, but I don't want to be like her. She has trouble walking around, she gets tired easily and is always in pain. She can't run around and play with her grandkids. She isn't even able to go with us to Disneyland because she can't stand or walk that long. I have her genes, and therefor, I have the potential to become that.
Even though my body will never go back to the way it was after I have kids, I want to be at my goal weight when I get pregnant. I don't want to have to lose the baby fat, plus the weight I've carried for most of my life in order to be a healthy Mom for my kids. I want to be an example for them as well, and teach them how to live a healthy lifestyle so that don't have to struggle with this like I have for the past 15 years.
I'm 26, married, and about to start a family in a couple of years - I'm not in the setting to be selfish about this choice. So sure, it'll be nice to be able to wear a bikini for a little bit, but it'll be priceless to have the health and energy to live a long and healthy life and watch my kids, and their kids grow up.
Sure, I'd like to be thinner and feel more comfortable in my clothes and about my body, not always avoiding trying on clothes because it won't fit over certain lumps and bulges, or because it's just unflattering. Sure, I'd like to be able to wear a bikini, and not be ashamed to walk around the pool or on the beach and wonder how much of me jiggles as I walk.
But the truth of it all is that I want to be healthy. I'm in the "overweight" range right now, meaning that my BMI is between 25.1 and 29, and with this comes various medical issues. High cholesterol is something I've dealt with all my life, and with my dads recent history with heart attacks, thats a big concern.
But I also see my family struggling with, or giving up on their weight. I love my Mom to death, but I don't want to be like her. She has trouble walking around, she gets tired easily and is always in pain. She can't run around and play with her grandkids. She isn't even able to go with us to Disneyland because she can't stand or walk that long. I have her genes, and therefor, I have the potential to become that.
Even though my body will never go back to the way it was after I have kids, I want to be at my goal weight when I get pregnant. I don't want to have to lose the baby fat, plus the weight I've carried for most of my life in order to be a healthy Mom for my kids. I want to be an example for them as well, and teach them how to live a healthy lifestyle so that don't have to struggle with this like I have for the past 15 years.
I'm 26, married, and about to start a family in a couple of years - I'm not in the setting to be selfish about this choice. So sure, it'll be nice to be able to wear a bikini for a little bit, but it'll be priceless to have the health and energy to live a long and healthy life and watch my kids, and their kids grow up.
Monday, February 21, 2011
I've been MIA - Please forgive me!?
So its been awhile since I've posted, and I hate to admit that I fell off the wagon for a little bit. I didn't weigh in last week, and that's partially due to a cold I woke up with Sunday morning that was wreaking havoc on me, and also due to being at work late on Wednesday. But mostly, I wanted to avoid the scale that day. I was up based on the scale at home, and I just wasn't ready to face that.
I stayed home on Thursday and Friday, and snacked, but I really really tried to stay in control, though I still wasn't tracking.
Saturday was my nephews birthday party, and there was El Pollo Loco with all the fixings, cupcakes, chips, dips, candy, and then it was Greggs birthday party with drinks, chips, dips, cakes. It could have been a total disaster. But it wasn't! I had made the decision the night before that I wasn't going to have a cupcake, or the mac&cheese, mashed potatoes, or tortillas that came with lunch. I ate one piece of chicken, some salad with a bit of creamy cilantro dressing, 1 small (1/2) of a taquito, and a small scoop of Sweet Corn Cake. I did snack on some Baked Tostitos, and some pretzel M&M's, but that was it. I didn't overdo it.
Then at Greggs, I snacked on the veggie plate they had, and only had 2 small drinks. I did end up eating a handful of Reduced Fat wheat thins, but I didn't succomb to the cake and chips, and buffalo wings. And the best part, I didn't miss it!
Yesterday Josh and I went to Subway for lunch, and I got my normal Turkey Breast on wheat with Swiss Cheese, which is a total of 9pts. I didn't get any chips, and didn't miss those either. Then we went to Young and Nino's, and Young had Oatmeal Raisin cookies baking, so I found a small one and only ate one. For dinner, we went to this Korean BBQ place where we all shared this big plate of meat. I was kinda hoping they would have some healthy sides with veggies, but they did not. So I had a couple bites of the sausage, 1 baby back rib (they are tiny), and some chicken. I avoided the sweet potato fries and the onion rings.
When I woke up this morning, I decided I needed to face the facts, get on the scale, and get back to tracking. I wasn't going to let this little road bump get in my way of reaching my goals, and I need to come to terms with the fact that this is going to happen again, and probably a few times, and thats okay - as long as I realize that I'm not on track, and do something to fix it.
Surprisingly enough, I must have not been too bad. I weighed in at 139.6. Down 1.4lbs from my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. Back in the 130's! Of course thats morning weight, and not my 5pm weigh-in weight, but it's in the right direction and I've got 3 days to get that number down even more.
See ya 140's (again).
I stayed home on Thursday and Friday, and snacked, but I really really tried to stay in control, though I still wasn't tracking.
Saturday was my nephews birthday party, and there was El Pollo Loco with all the fixings, cupcakes, chips, dips, candy, and then it was Greggs birthday party with drinks, chips, dips, cakes. It could have been a total disaster. But it wasn't! I had made the decision the night before that I wasn't going to have a cupcake, or the mac&cheese, mashed potatoes, or tortillas that came with lunch. I ate one piece of chicken, some salad with a bit of creamy cilantro dressing, 1 small (1/2) of a taquito, and a small scoop of Sweet Corn Cake. I did snack on some Baked Tostitos, and some pretzel M&M's, but that was it. I didn't overdo it.
Then at Greggs, I snacked on the veggie plate they had, and only had 2 small drinks. I did end up eating a handful of Reduced Fat wheat thins, but I didn't succomb to the cake and chips, and buffalo wings. And the best part, I didn't miss it!
Yesterday Josh and I went to Subway for lunch, and I got my normal Turkey Breast on wheat with Swiss Cheese, which is a total of 9pts. I didn't get any chips, and didn't miss those either. Then we went to Young and Nino's, and Young had Oatmeal Raisin cookies baking, so I found a small one and only ate one. For dinner, we went to this Korean BBQ place where we all shared this big plate of meat. I was kinda hoping they would have some healthy sides with veggies, but they did not. So I had a couple bites of the sausage, 1 baby back rib (they are tiny), and some chicken. I avoided the sweet potato fries and the onion rings.
When I woke up this morning, I decided I needed to face the facts, get on the scale, and get back to tracking. I wasn't going to let this little road bump get in my way of reaching my goals, and I need to come to terms with the fact that this is going to happen again, and probably a few times, and thats okay - as long as I realize that I'm not on track, and do something to fix it.
Surprisingly enough, I must have not been too bad. I weighed in at 139.6. Down 1.4lbs from my weigh-in 2 weeks ago. Back in the 130's! Of course thats morning weight, and not my 5pm weigh-in weight, but it's in the right direction and I've got 3 days to get that number down even more.
See ya 140's (again).
Monday, February 14, 2011
Day...Whatever; Sick.
So I didn't do so great over the weekend. Saturday was my sisters birthday and we spent the day at Victoria Gardens. We had lunch at Kabuki, and while the smart choice would have been the Hibachi Chicken, I had to get the Lotus on Fire Roll. I had that with a house salad and a Mojito.
After that we went to the movies and I managed to eat quite a few Junior Mints!
We walked around the mall forever...literally, hours! We passed by a Coach store and what was inside? My purse! One day, I will have her. Just not today.
I'm really not sure what face I'm making there, but it must be happiness!We stopped at Baskin Robbins and I had a kids size scoop of Jamoca. But by the time we got home I was starving, and grabbed the first thing I saw, which happened to be a slice of Cheese Pizza. I was still hungry after that so I opted for a healthier option of Beef Stew. But yeah, not good.
Sunday I woke up feeling AWFUL! My throat was sore and my sinuses were burning. I had grits and toast with jelly, and some juice for breakfast. For lunch I had beef stew, while the family got Taco Bell. I was doing well until Rachele told me there was an extra Taco, which I ate. I had 7 points going into dinner and figured I'd just have something light when the family decided to order chinese food from wongs, and I said, screw it, I'm enjoying my dinner.
So I wasn't AWFUL, but I wasn't good, and wasn't completely in control.
I will attempt to make up for it the next couple days so I don't have a gain - that would be devastating.
I wonder how much all this added snot weighs.
Gross, I know.
After that we went to the movies and I managed to eat quite a few Junior Mints!
We walked around the mall forever...literally, hours! We passed by a Coach store and what was inside? My purse! One day, I will have her. Just not today.
I'm really not sure what face I'm making there, but it must be happiness!We stopped at Baskin Robbins and I had a kids size scoop of Jamoca. But by the time we got home I was starving, and grabbed the first thing I saw, which happened to be a slice of Cheese Pizza. I was still hungry after that so I opted for a healthier option of Beef Stew. But yeah, not good.
Sunday I woke up feeling AWFUL! My throat was sore and my sinuses were burning. I had grits and toast with jelly, and some juice for breakfast. For lunch I had beef stew, while the family got Taco Bell. I was doing well until Rachele told me there was an extra Taco, which I ate. I had 7 points going into dinner and figured I'd just have something light when the family decided to order chinese food from wongs, and I said, screw it, I'm enjoying my dinner.
So I wasn't AWFUL, but I wasn't good, and wasn't completely in control.
I will attempt to make up for it the next couple days so I don't have a gain - that would be devastating.
I wonder how much all this added snot weighs.
Gross, I know.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Day 22, Weigh-in #3
Weigh-in Results
Week 3
My weigh-in day was last night, and let me tell you, I'm so happy! I lost another 1.8lbs, giving me a total weight loss of 4.4lbs in 3 weeks. I'm feeling skinnier, and my work pants are even starting to become lose. Even though its only 4.4, it feels like 10, and it feel AWESOME!
I am now starting my 4th week on this journey and I'm even more motivated than ever. If I lose 1.1lbs this week, I'll say goodbye to the 140's, and begin my journey in the 130's.
I'm a happy girl!
Week 4 Obstacles
Rachele's Birthday
We're doing a girls day out at the Victoria Gardens in Ontario. Getting our nails done and having lunch somewhere. I don't know where lunch will be, and what healthy choices I'll have. I hope it's some type of chain that requires their nutritionals to be posted. That would make life easier. I need to figure out the plan and prepare!
Week 3
My weigh-in day was last night, and let me tell you, I'm so happy! I lost another 1.8lbs, giving me a total weight loss of 4.4lbs in 3 weeks. I'm feeling skinnier, and my work pants are even starting to become lose. Even though its only 4.4, it feels like 10, and it feel AWESOME!
I am now starting my 4th week on this journey and I'm even more motivated than ever. If I lose 1.1lbs this week, I'll say goodbye to the 140's, and begin my journey in the 130's.
I'm a happy girl!
Week 4 Obstacles
Rachele's Birthday
We're doing a girls day out at the Victoria Gardens in Ontario. Getting our nails done and having lunch somewhere. I don't know where lunch will be, and what healthy choices I'll have. I hope it's some type of chain that requires their nutritionals to be posted. That would make life easier. I need to figure out the plan and prepare!
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