I refuse to gain back the weight I lost for the wedding - absolutely refuse. Now, if you saw my excercise and eating habits as of late, you'd think that maybe, perhaps, I thought differently.
I haven't been very good, I admit that. But, the thought of weight loss, and reaching my goal is still weighing heavily on my mind.
Yesterday started out fairly good. I had a 100-Cal English Muffin and some jelly for breakfast, and a grilled chicken breast with brocolli for lunch. I even went to the gym and attempted to get back into running. But then I had 5-Layer Dip and Chips, and Panda Express for dinner! Grrrr.
I'd like to point out that I'm not a runner, and never have been. It's hard for me to run for any significant amount of time. Before the wedding, I was working toward being able to run a 1/2 mile without stopping, and I never got there, unfortunately.
With bootcamp starting up in a week, this was something I wanted to work on beforehand. Well yesterday I got on the treadmill, and I ran. For 10 minutes straight! For .6 miles! Without stopping. I was very proud of myself, and if I pushed myself, I probably could have gone even more. I shall be back today for another stab at it - hopefully it wasn't just some random fluke.
I have replaced most of my wedding blogs with various weight loss blogs, and plan on documenting my weight loss journey - along with all my other random crap here.
I want to get back down to my low-weight of 128. I'm at roughly 140 right now. 12 pounds. I can do that. Just need to focus. These next three weeks, I'm going to hit it hard. Lots of gym, lots of upper body excercises. I have to get in shape for our rafting trip!
So I start, officially, today.
I stopped at Subway this morning and got a Breakfast Sandwich and a Foot-Long Roast Beef Sandwich on Omega-3 bread, with Swiss cheese, lettuce, spinach, tomato, onions, pickles and green peppers. I will eat half at lunch, and half at dinner. Total, this runs me about 15 points for all three meals, leaving me with 5 points for various snacks and whatnot.
I will also go to the gym after work. I will run on the treadmill again for 10 minutes, and walk, uphill, the other 20. Then I'll do some reps on the weight machine we have. Then I'll go back to the apartment and do some push ups, and crunches.
With all this said, I shall be "quitting" weight watchers. I need to save that money, and with bootcamp starting up, I won't be able to attend meetings for atleast the next 2 months. I know I can do it on my own, and its the smart thing to do right now financially. I really have to focus on saving so that by next year, I'll have a good chunk of money saved up to contribute to a down payment on a house.
So, the plan is 5lbs by my rafting trip on 4th of July. And then as close to 130 I can be for our August 6th trip to Virginia.
I should have weighed myself this morning to give myself a starting weight. Oh well, that'll be for tomorrow.
So, gooooooo weight loss!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Solarthon, 2010
A month or so ago, a coworker who handles different volunteer opportunities brought up an event that involved installing solar panels on Habitat for Humanities homes. This is one of the few that actually caught my attention, as Josh and I are both very involved in "green" movement and helping the environment.
So Saturday morning we woke up, very groggy due to being up until 2am, and made the 40 minute trek to Piru, CA. We pulled up to street of all Habitat for Humanity homes, and found it to be a very cute and pleasant little neighborhood. Josh and I checked in, grabbed our shirts and our hardhats and made our way over to the rest of our Wells Fargo crew.
They had bagels and coffee, and some cinnamon roll bites to get us started for the day. We split up into ground crew and roof crews, and started our various jobs. The ground crew bent conduit and got the solar panels ready, while the roof crew laid the wiring and ground wires. Then it was time to install the panels. The ground crew lifted the panels up to the roof crew and before we knew it, we had 6 panels secured onto the racks.
Then we stopped for lunch, which we were told was going to be provided by the homeowners themselves. I just figured they would all pitch in to buy something, but we soon saw that they had all cooked different dishes. This food was probably some the of the best food I had ever eaten. Carnitas, Rice, Macaroni Salad, Tamales. Like, seriously, the best I've ever had. And it was really cool to feel that sense of community there, and feeling how appreciative they all were for the chance to have solar panels installed on their roofs.
After lunch, we got right back into it and installed the last 6 panels. After just a few minutes they had the panels hooked up to the grids, and we were all able to see their electricity meter start turning backwards. It was such an exciting moment!
There had already been a few homes that have had solar panels installed, and they told us that their power bill went from $100, to $2, which is essentially the cost to keep the houses hooked up the grid. That's amazing.
I'd do this event over again in a heartbeat!
So Saturday morning we woke up, very groggy due to being up until 2am, and made the 40 minute trek to Piru, CA. We pulled up to street of all Habitat for Humanity homes, and found it to be a very cute and pleasant little neighborhood. Josh and I checked in, grabbed our shirts and our hardhats and made our way over to the rest of our Wells Fargo crew.
They had bagels and coffee, and some cinnamon roll bites to get us started for the day. We split up into ground crew and roof crews, and started our various jobs. The ground crew bent conduit and got the solar panels ready, while the roof crew laid the wiring and ground wires. Then it was time to install the panels. The ground crew lifted the panels up to the roof crew and before we knew it, we had 6 panels secured onto the racks.
Then we stopped for lunch, which we were told was going to be provided by the homeowners themselves. I just figured they would all pitch in to buy something, but we soon saw that they had all cooked different dishes. This food was probably some the of the best food I had ever eaten. Carnitas, Rice, Macaroni Salad, Tamales. Like, seriously, the best I've ever had. And it was really cool to feel that sense of community there, and feeling how appreciative they all were for the chance to have solar panels installed on their roofs.
After lunch, we got right back into it and installed the last 6 panels. After just a few minutes they had the panels hooked up to the grids, and we were all able to see their electricity meter start turning backwards. It was such an exciting moment!
There had already been a few homes that have had solar panels installed, and they told us that their power bill went from $100, to $2, which is essentially the cost to keep the houses hooked up the grid. That's amazing.
I'd do this event over again in a heartbeat!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Summmmer!
So after much bathing suit shopping, I finally ordered some that I hope to be promising, from Old Navy. They were mix and match, and fairly cheap, so I bought two tops, one pair of bottoms that match with both, and some board shorts that also match both tops. While I was at it, I bought a tank top, and a lightweight hoodie that should match as well.
I really hope they all look cute on me so I can be stylish when we go rafting, lol. And I'll have some cute choices for beaching this summer.
I really hope they all look cute on me so I can be stylish when we go rafting, lol. And I'll have some cute choices for beaching this summer.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Clothes
I'm really tired of a lot of my clothes. I envision myself having a certain type of style, but I don't have the money to purchase new clothes, let alone the body to pull it off.
Despite having lost about 15lbs this year, I'm still quite unhappy with my body. It doesn't help that according to the doctor, I'm still an overweight adult. I went bathing suit shopping recently and was immensely disappointed with what I saw.
I want to change my image, both physically and materialistically. I'm older, I'm married, and the person I portray needs to reflect that. I wish I could just throw on a pair of jeans, a cute shirt, pull my hair back in a pony tail and look pretty. Instead I worry about the fit of the shirt, does it flatter my belly pooch, are my jeans flattering my butt, put on an array of makeup and blowdry and straighten my hair with surgical precision.
I need to lose weight and get fit - yet, what did I do yesterday? Eat Wendy's. I won't blame myself for not working out because I've tweaked my neck and still don't have my full range of motion back. But I desperately need to go back soon.
So, I've created a short term goal for myself. 5lbs by rafting which is about 3 weeks away. And focus on working on my upper body strength specifically for rafting.
I want to be a fit active person, and I know that I've already started habits in my life that would lead in the opposite direction, the same direction my family has taken to immobility and unhealthyness. I don't want to be like them.
So tonight, I will make my way to the treadmill. I'll hold off on the arms until my neck is better, but treadmill it will be!
Despite having lost about 15lbs this year, I'm still quite unhappy with my body. It doesn't help that according to the doctor, I'm still an overweight adult. I went bathing suit shopping recently and was immensely disappointed with what I saw.
I want to change my image, both physically and materialistically. I'm older, I'm married, and the person I portray needs to reflect that. I wish I could just throw on a pair of jeans, a cute shirt, pull my hair back in a pony tail and look pretty. Instead I worry about the fit of the shirt, does it flatter my belly pooch, are my jeans flattering my butt, put on an array of makeup and blowdry and straighten my hair with surgical precision.
I need to lose weight and get fit - yet, what did I do yesterday? Eat Wendy's. I won't blame myself for not working out because I've tweaked my neck and still don't have my full range of motion back. But I desperately need to go back soon.
So, I've created a short term goal for myself. 5lbs by rafting which is about 3 weeks away. And focus on working on my upper body strength specifically for rafting.
I want to be a fit active person, and I know that I've already started habits in my life that would lead in the opposite direction, the same direction my family has taken to immobility and unhealthyness. I don't want to be like them.
So tonight, I will make my way to the treadmill. I'll hold off on the arms until my neck is better, but treadmill it will be!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The LONG weekend!
So I really wanted to post yesterday, but blogger was down in the morning, and by the time it was working I was too involved in work to even start.
Even though I should be working at this moment, I'm not.
So - the weekend. It was interesting. Saturday was probably the most boring day I've had in a long time. I desperately wanted to get out, do stuff, but it didn't work out that way. We sat, and sat, and sat. No movies, no beach, no hanging out with friends. It baffles me that Josh is content doing this, as he's out of work, and sits at home like this every day. I decided to start on my 2009 Book that I'd totally procrastinated on doing last year. I actually finished it that same day.
I sometimes feel like Josh and I get bored of eachother. I think it's just him not being at work, and being home, and us always being together. I know he's down right now, not having work, and being so broke. I had to loan him some cash yesterday to pay rent (a week late), and now, we're both completely broke. I can tell its weighing heavily on him, but he won't talk about it. I know he feels like he's letting us down, especially in our first month of being married. It's not his fault. It happens.
Sunday however, was pretty fun. Josh had gotten free Dodger tickets for Sunday - and while Josh enjoys baseball, he was especially excited because the Dodgers were playing the Braves. We had 8 tickets, so we gathered up some friends and made our way down there. It was an extremely hot day, and our seats were in the sun for all 11 innings. It was a fun game though, and I got to eat my chocolate malt with the wooden spoon, like I've always done at Dodger games. Unfortunately for Josh, the Braves lost.
After the game we bolted over to my parents who were waiting to watch Game 2 of the Lakers vs. Celtics Finals. It was a close game for a lot of it, and kept us all on the edge of our seats. In the end, the Lakers also succumbed to the Celtics, tying the series 1-1.
I went back to work on Monday surprising well rested, and the day flew by. I think because it went so fast, I wasn't so drained of life by the time I left, and really had a hard time getting to sleep. I think I was excited about rafting finally being reserved. I probably shouldn't have spent the money on that until I knew Josh and I would be ok.
We're both going to have to be on some major lock down this week until more of Josh's checks start coming in. I can't wait until we move, and Josh has a steady, stable job, and we can stop worrying about the next show, the next unemployment check. That'll be nice.
Even though I should be working at this moment, I'm not.
So - the weekend. It was interesting. Saturday was probably the most boring day I've had in a long time. I desperately wanted to get out, do stuff, but it didn't work out that way. We sat, and sat, and sat. No movies, no beach, no hanging out with friends. It baffles me that Josh is content doing this, as he's out of work, and sits at home like this every day. I decided to start on my 2009 Book that I'd totally procrastinated on doing last year. I actually finished it that same day.
I sometimes feel like Josh and I get bored of eachother. I think it's just him not being at work, and being home, and us always being together. I know he's down right now, not having work, and being so broke. I had to loan him some cash yesterday to pay rent (a week late), and now, we're both completely broke. I can tell its weighing heavily on him, but he won't talk about it. I know he feels like he's letting us down, especially in our first month of being married. It's not his fault. It happens.
Sunday however, was pretty fun. Josh had gotten free Dodger tickets for Sunday - and while Josh enjoys baseball, he was especially excited because the Dodgers were playing the Braves. We had 8 tickets, so we gathered up some friends and made our way down there. It was an extremely hot day, and our seats were in the sun for all 11 innings. It was a fun game though, and I got to eat my chocolate malt with the wooden spoon, like I've always done at Dodger games. Unfortunately for Josh, the Braves lost.
After the game we bolted over to my parents who were waiting to watch Game 2 of the Lakers vs. Celtics Finals. It was a close game for a lot of it, and kept us all on the edge of our seats. In the end, the Lakers also succumbed to the Celtics, tying the series 1-1.
I went back to work on Monday surprising well rested, and the day flew by. I think because it went so fast, I wasn't so drained of life by the time I left, and really had a hard time getting to sleep. I think I was excited about rafting finally being reserved. I probably shouldn't have spent the money on that until I knew Josh and I would be ok.
We're both going to have to be on some major lock down this week until more of Josh's checks start coming in. I can't wait until we move, and Josh has a steady, stable job, and we can stop worrying about the next show, the next unemployment check. That'll be nice.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
1 Month!
Josh and I "celebrated" our 1 Month of being married. And by celebrated, I mean, I took him to Applebees. The one (and only one) even remotely close had closed down for quite a long time, and we just recently learned that it had reopened. Josh was ecstatic.
It feels like the time has flown by - yet, I still haven't even started the process of my name change. I really need to order our Marriage Certificate ASAP, and get one that.
Josh is still out of work, unfortunately. He's had a couple job offers, that he's turned down. The first offer he got was for a game show called Minute To Win It. At first, it seemed like a good thing. It's a network show which means a longer gig, more money, and it was being shot at CBS Radford, so for the first time, he'd be working in the valley. But then he found out that it'd be 14-hour days, 6 days a week, for $100 less than his base weekly rate. He agonized over what to do, but eventually said thanks, but no thanks. It's the first time he'd ever turned down a job.
The second show was even worse, as they paid even less money.
I told Josh that I supported him completely - he's worked too hard and too long to short sell himself like that, especially when a chance for a good show might be coming up soon. The boss he loves has some stuff in the works, though they may not start up for another few weeks.
I can't wait until we can have a more normal life with more normal jobs. That'll be nice.
In other new:
Oil is still spilling into the Gulf, my Dad hasn't gone back to work yet, the Lakers play game 1 against the Celtics tonight, Caleb won 1st place in his race last night, and it's time for breakfast!
It feels like the time has flown by - yet, I still haven't even started the process of my name change. I really need to order our Marriage Certificate ASAP, and get one that.
Josh is still out of work, unfortunately. He's had a couple job offers, that he's turned down. The first offer he got was for a game show called Minute To Win It. At first, it seemed like a good thing. It's a network show which means a longer gig, more money, and it was being shot at CBS Radford, so for the first time, he'd be working in the valley. But then he found out that it'd be 14-hour days, 6 days a week, for $100 less than his base weekly rate. He agonized over what to do, but eventually said thanks, but no thanks. It's the first time he'd ever turned down a job.
The second show was even worse, as they paid even less money.
I told Josh that I supported him completely - he's worked too hard and too long to short sell himself like that, especially when a chance for a good show might be coming up soon. The boss he loves has some stuff in the works, though they may not start up for another few weeks.
I can't wait until we can have a more normal life with more normal jobs. That'll be nice.
In other new:
Oil is still spilling into the Gulf, my Dad hasn't gone back to work yet, the Lakers play game 1 against the Celtics tonight, Caleb won 1st place in his race last night, and it's time for breakfast!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Memorial Day Weekend
The weekend was a long, yet good weekend that was comprised of many events.
I had to work on Friday until 2pm, and had planned on having Josh pick me up and leaving straight from work. Unfortunately, Josh wanted to wait for his unemployment paperwork to come (they had screwed up and hadn't received anything since May 9th, which means no checks had been coming in), so he could get it filled out and returned so a check could be sent our way.
The mail guy didn't get there until 3:45, which meant that we didn't get on the road until 4pm. Traffic was awful! It took us 3 and 1/2 hours to get to Vicki's - when it's normally a 2 hour drive at most. But, we got there just in time to see Caleb start racing. That boy is so bad ass, I can't even tell you. He came in third - which he was more than happy about. He loves doing it, and at this point, doesn't care much about what place he comes in.
Josh and I went back to my sisters house, while my Mom, Dad, Rachele and Christopher drove up to Big Bear. I wanted Josh to be able to enjoy the drive up since he hadn't been there before, and opted to drive up in the morning. Which we did. Very early in the morning. We made it to the cabin around 8:30 that morning.
Once Joe and Deb got there, the whole family went to breakfast. It was deeeeelicious. In hindsight, we could have done without the large meal since the BBQ was starting in just a few hours. Oh well.
We didn't do a whole lot that day, besides eating, fishing, coloring (lots and lots of coloring), and watched the Laker game and The Blindside which I really enjoyed.
On Sunday, Pastor Trish made everyone breakfast and then conducted our own little church service. It was maybe 30 minutes long, and the kids took part in reading and handing out communion. It was pretty cool.
Joe, Deb, Josh and I went to the Village and walked around the stores a bit, before heading back to the cabin and saying our goodbyes and driving home.
We got home around 2, and just lounged around the house. We eventually went to Target and bought our Thank You cards (we gotta get those done, like, last week), some Eyeliner, and Saving Private Ryan on Blu-Ray. We had a $50 Gift Card and our total was $47. That was pretty nice.
Monday, Whitney had a BBQ at her parents house. They have this awesome outdoor patio setup that really hadn't been used yet, so we christened it. It was amazing - perfectly suited for entertaining. We ate chips, burgers, hot dogs and cookies. And sat around and talked. Nino brought me my camera, so I got to play around with that a little bit. As much as the internal memory will let me. I'll have to go to Target or WalMart today to buy a SD Card and a case to keep my new camera safe and pretty.
I drove Josh home, since he was pretty drunk. Ridiculous. He used me as a drum the whole way home. Then he got pretty melodramatic that night, telling me that he didn't deserve me, and that he'd never live up to his Dad. That's pretty hard to deal with. What do you say to that? But for the most part, he was pretty silly.
He ended up falling asleep on the couch, which gave me freedom to get ready in the bedroom/bathroom. That was really nice. I had a few extra minutes so I finally made our bed. We washed our sheets over a week ago, and both of us have been too lazy to actually make it - so we've just been sleeping on the mattress with some throw blankets over us. So, thats done. I feel like I've been pretty lackluster in keeping the house together. A lot of clutter thats pretty much my fault. Gotta get that under control.
I'm really considering putting an end to my acrylic nails. I've had them for 2 years or so at this point, but - I dunno. Our normal nail lady had to skip town because her husband tried to kill her. She finally came back but is living out near Long Beach and is only going to commute to her shop in Woodland Hills every 2 weeks for her long-time clients. I just don't know if I want to deal with it anymore. 2 weeks is too short, 4 weeks is too long. Our appointment isn't until the 26th of this month, and I've already gone about 5 weeks since my last fill. I think I just want to take them off. Go Au' Natural for awhile. Not spend that extra money.
Anyway - I've been here for over an hour and I haven't done a thing. Must work!
I had to work on Friday until 2pm, and had planned on having Josh pick me up and leaving straight from work. Unfortunately, Josh wanted to wait for his unemployment paperwork to come (they had screwed up and hadn't received anything since May 9th, which means no checks had been coming in), so he could get it filled out and returned so a check could be sent our way.
The mail guy didn't get there until 3:45, which meant that we didn't get on the road until 4pm. Traffic was awful! It took us 3 and 1/2 hours to get to Vicki's - when it's normally a 2 hour drive at most. But, we got there just in time to see Caleb start racing. That boy is so bad ass, I can't even tell you. He came in third - which he was more than happy about. He loves doing it, and at this point, doesn't care much about what place he comes in.
Josh and I went back to my sisters house, while my Mom, Dad, Rachele and Christopher drove up to Big Bear. I wanted Josh to be able to enjoy the drive up since he hadn't been there before, and opted to drive up in the morning. Which we did. Very early in the morning. We made it to the cabin around 8:30 that morning.
Once Joe and Deb got there, the whole family went to breakfast. It was deeeeelicious. In hindsight, we could have done without the large meal since the BBQ was starting in just a few hours. Oh well.
We didn't do a whole lot that day, besides eating, fishing, coloring (lots and lots of coloring), and watched the Laker game and The Blindside which I really enjoyed.
On Sunday, Pastor Trish made everyone breakfast and then conducted our own little church service. It was maybe 30 minutes long, and the kids took part in reading and handing out communion. It was pretty cool.
Joe, Deb, Josh and I went to the Village and walked around the stores a bit, before heading back to the cabin and saying our goodbyes and driving home.
We got home around 2, and just lounged around the house. We eventually went to Target and bought our Thank You cards (we gotta get those done, like, last week), some Eyeliner, and Saving Private Ryan on Blu-Ray. We had a $50 Gift Card and our total was $47. That was pretty nice.
Monday, Whitney had a BBQ at her parents house. They have this awesome outdoor patio setup that really hadn't been used yet, so we christened it. It was amazing - perfectly suited for entertaining. We ate chips, burgers, hot dogs and cookies. And sat around and talked. Nino brought me my camera, so I got to play around with that a little bit. As much as the internal memory will let me. I'll have to go to Target or WalMart today to buy a SD Card and a case to keep my new camera safe and pretty.
I drove Josh home, since he was pretty drunk. Ridiculous. He used me as a drum the whole way home. Then he got pretty melodramatic that night, telling me that he didn't deserve me, and that he'd never live up to his Dad. That's pretty hard to deal with. What do you say to that? But for the most part, he was pretty silly.
He ended up falling asleep on the couch, which gave me freedom to get ready in the bedroom/bathroom. That was really nice. I had a few extra minutes so I finally made our bed. We washed our sheets over a week ago, and both of us have been too lazy to actually make it - so we've just been sleeping on the mattress with some throw blankets over us. So, thats done. I feel like I've been pretty lackluster in keeping the house together. A lot of clutter thats pretty much my fault. Gotta get that under control.
I'm really considering putting an end to my acrylic nails. I've had them for 2 years or so at this point, but - I dunno. Our normal nail lady had to skip town because her husband tried to kill her. She finally came back but is living out near Long Beach and is only going to commute to her shop in Woodland Hills every 2 weeks for her long-time clients. I just don't know if I want to deal with it anymore. 2 weeks is too short, 4 weeks is too long. Our appointment isn't until the 26th of this month, and I've already gone about 5 weeks since my last fill. I think I just want to take them off. Go Au' Natural for awhile. Not spend that extra money.
Anyway - I've been here for over an hour and I haven't done a thing. Must work!
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