Bummed

I should be in a better mood with it being Friday, but I'm not.

I was supposed to get a half day, but that was taken away.
I have to eat lunch alone because all my coworkers go out on Fridays, and I have to be good, both financially, and with my diet.
Josh didn't want to join me because he didn't want to shower and shave.
Rafting may not happen as I'm not getting a very good response.

I'll spend the rest of the work day wallowing in my self pity.

Perhaps I'll make myself feel better by buying myself a new digital camera after work.

Phew!

After the wedding, I didn't worry quite as much about dieting. The honeymoon was my time to enjoy myself and eat and drink to my hearts desire. And thats what I did. However, I didn't quite jump back on the diet bandwagon when I returned. I tried, but I still allowed myself some splurging.

Last night was my first time back at Weight Watchers since April 15, right when the Wedding Craze really began. But, it seems I did more good than bad, as I am down .2lbs since my last weigh in. It's not tons, not by any means - but it means I didn't gain, and it's nice knowing that I don't have to go back and try and re-lose any weight that I had already lost.

138.4 - 8.4 to go to reach my next goal!

Rafting on the American River

When I was younger, I was heavily involved in my church youth group. There would be small events at the church on the weekends, youth retreats up to Big Bear, and one retreat even to Seattle. One of the trips that we took that remains close to my heart was to a camp called Rock n' Water. It was a camp located in Sacramento on the American River that took you on a two day rafting trip and one day rock climbing trip. I had the best time of my life doing something so new and exciting.

After that I was hooked. I convinced my Girl Scout troop to go not once, but twice. The first time we went, we went with a company called White Water Connection. The camp was great, the food was good, and the guides were so funny (and cute to boot!). After girl scouts, I convinced my family to go a few times as well.

The first trip I planned in my college years was with my group of friends. We were on our way there when I get a voicemail from the company asking me to call them. Immediately, my heart sunk. What if they had to cancel due to overbooking or some other matter. We had already driven about 4 hours. But, it was the opposite. They had a cancellation for their Middle Fork, and wanted to move us to that one for free. The Middle Fork is a bit more for intermediate rafters with higher class rapids, where as the South Fork is fairly tame.

This change in plans couldn't have gone any better. The Middle Fork was so much fun, and was a nice deviation from the section of the river I'd been on a handful of times. Even some of my friends who had never been rafting before enjoyed the more intense rapids.

The last time I had gone was in 2006, and every summer since, I've regretted not going. Now, with a move to the East Coast looming above my head, and this possibly being my last Summer in California, I knew I had to plan one last trip to the American River. We're tentatively looking at the 4th of July weekend, as they have discounted rates that weekend, and because its a built in 3-day Weekend.

I'm still trying to get the troops in line, but even if its just Josh and I, I know it will be a blast.

Gym! (and other stuff)

I'm finally starting to feel almost completely better. I only get a twinge of pain when I press on the area "of concern", lol. So, with that, Josh and I are headed to the gym tonight. I haven't had a proper workout since a week before the wedding, so I'm going to start out just doing the treadmill and stair machine before getting back into my more strenuous DVD's.

Bootcamp starts back in about a month, and I'm thinking about signing up for another class through Pierce Extension classes.

Speaking of Josh, his cold is finally starting to subside. He was back to his normal self yesterday which was nice. I'm still avoiding kisses from him, because I can't afford to get sick again.

We went and visited my Dad yesterday and he seems to be doing better. They prescribed him a drug called Chantix, that is supposed to block the nicotine receptors in your brain. Apparently he felt immediate relief after taking his first dose. He still has cravings, but its taken the edge off and has allowed him to kind of relax. My mom said that he's just been going and going, jumping from one project to another. Today he's going to remove the back doors to paint them. I'm so glad he's doing so well after his heart attack, and ready to make some life changes.

My boss offered to treat me to Starbucks today, but I gratefully declined. I need to be good too, and eat my Weight Watchers bagel that I brought. I them promptly burned said bagel. But I ate it anyway.

Time to start again!

I used to blog all the time - on multiple blogs. Besides my wedding blog that took hold in the past year, I've all but stopped blogging. How will I remember my life?!

So, now that the wedding is now behind me, it's time to get get back into it.

What have I missed?
Obviously - I'm now happily married.
My Dad had a heart attack, and he and my mom are now forced to change their life-long habits.
My constant struggle with weight, and now, health.

I recently had a bout of stomach pain that landed me in the E.R., coincidentally on the same day that my Dad had his heart attack. The stomach pain still has no known cause, but only lives on in a small tender area under my right ribcage. It could be gallstones. It could be nothing.

But while I was at the doctor, they wanted to recheck my cholesterol since it had tested high back in October. With my recent weight loss, it should have gone down. But to my surprise, it has gone up.

With my Dad's recent health scares, this is something I really need to watch. So now, not only am I concerned about my weight (according to the doctor, I am still an overweight adult), but also my blood. I'll really need to watch what I'm putting into my body, and not just how many "points" it is.

So my new goal is to lose 10lbs by August 5th (my trip to Virginia and Canada), and hopefully lower my cholesterol to a healthy level. Also, to be able to run a mile without stopping. Woo! Lol.

Okay, done for today!

Crazy Florist

My ex-florist is crazy! Crazy! She's totally taken this to a level that it didn't need to be taken to. I don't get why she just can't take responsibility that she did screw up a little, and realize that she just can't keep all my money.

She's become so catty and just UGH! She won't even respond to my work emails because she doesn't want to be accused of harrassing me at work. Where did that come from? We got a notice of a Certified Letter that came in the mail yesterday that is from her, and I'm dreading picking it up from the post office today after work.

Her actions have just ruined my days - yesterday I was so down, and not my normal happy self. I feel like I have this huge weight on my shoulders, and thats not how I want to feel while planning my wedding. Isn't this supposed to be a happy time? I don't see it getting any better after picking up this letter.

Ugh - I don't want to deal with this.

July!?

I haven't posted on here since July? Good lord. I used to be a blog whore, and this blog goes un-blogged for 9 months. Well...I guess I haven't been totally blog deprived - I've been posting all my nitty gritty wedding details on a blog for brides. But there must be non-wedding things going on in my life to blog about, right? Right?

Hmmm, lets see.

I did laundry tonight. Much needed laundry - 4 loads! Exciting right?

I started a boot camp....to get ready for the wedding. Hmph. Wedding related.

My bridal shower is this weekend. I must remember to bring Ashley's dress. Hmph. Wedding related.

Eehhh, fuck it.