I've waivered

So I haven't exactly followed my goal, but its not in a bad way. After starting to get a headache, I decided I should drink my coffee...perhaps the lack of caffiene in body had gotten to me. It didn't do much, and after trying to not have soda at lunch, my headache got worse. I just went and got a diet coke, and I hope that'll do the trick. I'll still try to drink my 64 oz. of water...although I've only consumed one bottle, at 19.6 oz.

I didn't eat my Cheez-its at lunch either. I figured with all my veggies, I'd be full enough with out it. I ate the 100 cal of cookies to satisfy my sweet tooth though, as I usually need to do after a meal.

So my points total so far is 10!

Dinner was a success

I would say yesterday was certainly a "check" in the world of diets. I had 11 points going into dinner, but when I got home I was starving. I opened up my bag of raw broccoli and carrots and devoured half of it...but its veggies, 0 points! To be on the safe side, I'll count 1 point for the Light Veggie dip I used.
Still hungry, I had two slices of Weight Watchers cheese, at a point each. Soo, 2 points there.

For dinner I had a Veggie Burger, Corn and Edamame, all in all, about 5 points.

For dessert, I had a weight watchers ice cream cup, 2 points.

When Josh got home I had 2 bites of his burger and a french fry, so just to be safe, we'll assign a point to that.

That equals 21 points, my exact daily allotment of points.


Today's food that I have packed:
Weight Watchers Blueberry Muffin - 3 Points
Veggies and Light Dip - 1 point
Sandwich - 4 points
Pickle - 0 points
100 Cal Cheez-its - 2
100 Cal Cookies - 2

Thats 12 points total, leaving me 9 points for tonight.

My goal for today is to drink only water. I'm not having my normal morning coffee, and I didn't bring a Coke Zero with me for lunch. You're supposed to get 64 oz of water a day, and I know I'm drinking no where near that. Water is an essential part of weight loss, and I need to drink more.

Maybe I'll even work out tonight!

2 more points

I just had two of the bite sized hersheys, so thats 2 more points gone. So now I have 9 points left for today.

And I should really drink more water.

Scale Adventure and Disappointment

I went and bought a scale at Target yesterday after my Dentist appt. It's a fancy Weight Watchers scale they had that not only weighs you but gives you your body fat in lbs and %, body water lbs, bone mass, and your BMI. Needless to say, I was not too happy to see what the scale had in store for me. 151. Only 10 lbs away from what I weighed when I started Weight Watchers back in 2006. 20 lbs above my lowest weight. Shame on me.

I wrote down all my stats and I will keep track of them each week while I'm on this journey.

Even with this discovery, I probably didn't eat as well as I could have. I wanted a snack so I had some popcorn, but realized I was just too hungry and I should just eat dinner. I knew Pasta is bad, but I had leftovers and didn't want it to go to waste. The good and bad thing about it was that there wasn't much of it, leaving me terribly hungry two hours later. I ended up having a hot dog and my weight watchers ice cream. All in all I probably didn't do too bad, but it certainly wasn't great.

Today is a new day, and here is what I've packed for breakfast and lunch.
Breakfast included a Western Bagel Alternative Bagel and Weight Watchers Cream Cheese, with a side of blueberries for a total points value of 4.
Lunch is again a sandwich for 4 points, a pickle for 0 points, and an 100 calorie Cheez-its pack for 2 points. So whats that...10 points, leaving 11 for dinner. Thats a good amount for dinner.

Josh weighed himself too and he's 173. He didn't know how to do all his stats, so I'll do that with him tonight. His body fat will be like 7lbs, lol. Skinny bastard ;)

I know if I really watch what I eat, I could have that normal first week loss which tends to be big...4lbs. I'm going to Disneyland on Saturday and that could be bad for diets but I can do it. We shouldn't spend the money buying food there anyway, so I'm sure we'll pack something.

Back to Blogger

I am back, and this time perhaps for a different reason. Following Kathy's lead, I'm going to use this to be held accountable to weight loss.

I've gone up and down with my weight for the past couple years, and as with most holidays I'm certainly on an upswing. So, I'll track my weight loss and healthy eating here in this journal and hopefully be inspired and motivated for anyone that might stumble across this blog.

So, here it goes.

I haven't weight myself recently. I assume I'm between 145-150 right now. I would like to be at 130-135.

As far as food goes, here is what I've eaten today. I will be trying to follow the Weight Watchers points to the best of my ability, as that is what I know and what has worked.

Breakfast: Weight Watchers Blueberry Muffin - 3 pts.
Lunch: Sandwich: Bread - 1pt, Mayo - 1pt, Meat - 2pt, Cheese - 1pt
Pickles - 0pt!
Blackberries/Blueberrys - 1pt
100 Calorie Pack Cookies - 2pt

So, I've used 11 points, leaving me with 10 points for dinner. Not too bad.
I'm actually craving a Grilled Cheese and Soup for dinner, which is a ridiculously low point meal.

Half way through day 1, and so far, successful!
Thank god the Holidays are OVER!

My last few entries have been really depressing, lol. It's true that I haven't been happy in my friend situation, but thats not the only thing going on in my life. I have an amazing boyfriend that I love like crazy. Every morning I wake up next to him and we immediately start having a good time (not like that), but just laughing and joking around with eachother, and I get to see him pout when I leave for work. It's a lot of fun. It's nice being able to look forward to coming home because I know he'll be there.

Maui is now 2 weeks away, and I'm so looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to leaving everything here behind, forgetting about financial worries, work, weight, EVERYTHING, and just enjoying the short vacation with my friends. I don't mind all the obstacles it took to get there, because it will just make it that much more deserving.

A couple good things in the horizon besides Maui:
-I might be getting $6,000 from the lawsuit against VW. That, my friends, will be just enough to pay off my car. I'll keep it until I have the babies and need a more mommy-friendly car, like a minivan. Wooo. Or a sporty hip SUV - or the ever all accomodating Camry. Josh said he wouldn't let me drive our babies around in my car.
-I had found out that my parents had decided to claim me as a dependent because it helped them. Unfortunately, it hurt me in the fact that I wouldn't get the same return, and I wouldn't be receiving the $600 rebate. However, I found out yesterday that my parents will be giving me what I would have gotten, which, folks, comes to $1,000.
-Thirdly, I have a picture of Josh in a dress that I intend on getting printed and showing to his Mother. She'll be proud.

So, things aren't completely bad as I might have made them sound. I am sad, and maybe disappointed in some ways that the group I've come to depend on so much is breaking apart and making me feel stranded. But I know I'll always have my friends, just not in the same ways as before, and I'll always have Josh.

Having to deal with the whole Maui/ATA debacle yesterday made me temporarily forget what I've been so down about lately. When the whole thing was over and resolved I was almost caught off guard that I was still down. It seemed to emphasize and clarify the reason why. But, really, and I've said this before - nothings going to change. I'm just different. But being different means being lonely. Maybe I need to reach out to others more like me instead of sitting here complaining about it. But that means giving up on the past, the past that I'd like so dearly to continue having. I'm trying to hold on, fighting it, but that fight is only causing me to lose my grip even more. It's odd. When something moves closer, the distance grows. Oh life. You really do suck sometimes.